recently, i discovered that im actually.. . . er, livin in my very own world. I have my own secret hiding place and do my very own things. I DONT THINK that im enjoying doin this neither feeling bad.
I went back to my very own (place/hometown) last week. and VERY few people knew about my existence. Its not that i dont want to tell them that 'HEY! IM HOME! LETS HAV SOME FUN JYEAH?!'
and i felt like i was practically invisible.
BUT ACTUALLY, i knew that im not going to see them no matter what. i was like being pinned at my kampung, and theres no way i could change my fate that is written like this:
'the long-term holiday that i've been waiting for for the past freaking YEAR . . is going to be wasted by doing nothing and without your friends. THANK YOU.'
that was real disheartening aites?
by the way, feeling good cuz i can contribute SOMETHANG, by taking care my ailing grandma(:
i love her so much. she's my greatest grandma tht ive ever had. shes freaking good at cooking! her magnificent dishes was undoubtedly mesmerizing and mouth watering. everyone who had a chance to TRY her dishes is going to be amazed with the splendid taste! ok dah cukup :0
too bad:( this time. after i had been staying there for almost 1 week or so..
she(my grandma) was too weak to cook. instead, we bought her favvy foods and feed her. sometimes, i took the responsibility of assisting her to the toilet, strolling slowly to the kitchen by holding her hands, and preparing her medicine each nights.
cukup untuk ibu2 diluar sana yg ada anak hengsem, amik borang untuk try jadi ibu mertuaku.
oh gediknya.terus i kena reject:D
but then, not everything went SO WELL as what i've rattled as above.
sometimes, i did some mistakes and embarrassed myself with my awkwardness of taking care an aging people. im soo not eligible to be a nurse. kehkeh:D im not that feminine and girlish.
alhamdulillah, she has recovered after had been taken care by her freaking FILIAL granddaughter(: ok tipu je. 'grandchildren' and blablabla..
ok thats all.balik sini pun takde apa. baguslah. bosan bersama. internet ada depan mata selalu tak berguna.