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with the heart thumpin hard...
im waiting my MYE result patiently:D

OK SERIOUS TAKDA CERITA DAH.


HAHA(!)

kenapa asyik no.2

ha amik kau. dah 2nd post
HEHE.
mcm ni. aku tak pasti la aku ni gila ke ape.
or mybe jealous ke ape. tapi kalau tnya aku mmg
la aku tk jawab aku jeles
dan nak kata aku tak memahami.
mcm la aku tk pernah rasa kot time time
bahagia macam duduk atas the huge cotton candy?

ala senang crita bila kau dah ada boifren.
kau nak carik kawan kau bila dah nak bersedih2 la
bila boifren kau ala ala nak lari lari anak
bila boifren kau ada skandal
bila smua yg tak best tak best mesti baru nak carik

KALAU TAK.24/7

semua boifren kau.
msg jgn cerita la. non stop!
kalau update twitter tu..
haish. mmg kalah blog aku
yg korg dah mnymph ni
so mungkin
tmbh lagi nyampah ngn twitter diorg.
ke ape ape la yg menghapdetkan
pasal 'im yours' ni blablabla.

ok dah mungkin pembaca setia tk faham apa aku ckp ni
sbb aku post ni lepas geram je.

HAHA.
bai

dont.dont.

bengang sikit okay
orang orang yang cakap
banyak bila dah kalah
salah dan sebagainya
bajet lah menyesal tak sudah dan
mourning tetiba mcm menggila
bajet bajet nak berubah.
penat lelah aku pujuk tau!
last last mcm tu jugak?
cakap senangla...
buat entah bila.
ni bukan first time ok
aku sabar je ni.
lainkali tak nak amik tahu dah
mungkin kot.



***

Yay new song;p

haha. mybe ths is not the newest or the latest song
cz i just discovered abt ths song few weeks ago.
after i had downloaded the whole song, I thought that ths song
quite lame . haha jahat tau.
and then after i listened the whole song (again) yesterday,

WHOA! :D

dah.dah nak mandi.suka tu merepek di tengahari-.-'


i like the way i cant keep my focus
i watch u talk u didnt notice:)

kan senang tu

actually kerja kerja pembersihan bilik nak dilakukan a day after exam! TAPI
ya allah punya lah pemalasnya saya ni. memang takde masa lah nk mengemas bilik
ada masa susun buku2 je yg bersepah. bajet lah minggu pereksa.
keadaan bilik selalunya lebih teruk dari keadaan kapal pecah ya

jadi selepas susun buku pada hari pertama selepas exam,
saya rasa bangga kerana dah siap satu task. wakaka.
malang sekali bilikkk dah la berhabuk
sepah sepah pulak tu.
so dengan rajin nya pergi sapu, mop okai pendek kata semua

(sbnrya sapu n mop je)

then pergi jalan.

sekian,

haha!

Heart Pictures, Images and Photos

i dont knw why.
but i noticed that lately,
he always shows up out of nowhere.
tht's make me love like him even more
then mesti ada je
within a few feet of me.(esp during ths week)
AWWww:D

bukan nak cakap ape lah

i just left the sch for few hours
but i cant bear my feeling of missing someone lols!


okay dah fokus.fokus. exam.exam.dah.dekat.

cerita last day of sch.

tak habis lagi actually pasal semlam
tapi takpelah habis habis kan lah=.='
sebab today kan last day of sch.
sanggup berkorban apa sahaja. wakaka.
lepak kat skolah...
dan aku volunteer bajet nak stay back
padahal takde kena mngena pun aku kena stay back
tapii . . ....
sebab 'orang lain tu' stayback.
so ngan aku aku sekali TER staybackkk. wakaka:D
takpelah. yg penting happy gila okay (hearts-hearts)

then demi mmbuang masa main volley ball dgn rakan tetangga.
okay part ni pun best since aku tk penah nk stayback tnpa sebab
sebelum ni ;/
jadi bila first time buat cenggini, rasa best pulak
healthy lifestyle (tetiba)
having a good time with them. kata last day of sch!
berapa kali nk ulang=.=

okay suka tau. suka suka suka:D

bai

(nmpk sgt semenjak dua mnjak dah takda cerita ni, cerita smua entri sama je)

ahha

hi mira!

bestnya kalau hari hari macam hariniii♥
+
bestnya kalau hari hari macam semalam♥
hihi. malang sekali esok dah hari lasstt skolah:'((
rindu sekolah.rindu kawan kawan.rindu cikguuu..
okay saja je tipu korang.
rindu orang lain sebenarnya =.=


best pulak bila sisa sisa hari terakhir sekolah sebelum
cuti mid term mmg awesome smpai camni;p♥♥♥
tahun lepas actually lagi best:)
tapi mcm expected lah tahun lepas kan kannnn ;p

tapi yang tahun ni macam awww... best tau tau tau:D
♥saya suka.


bye!

(saje letak nama mira,dah lama tak chat ngn awak. sila buat acc Facebook ye! )

hello tuesday:)

okay. senang cerita happy gila kot harini.
kehkeh, dah siap pun project plus tak payah stay back plus. YAY.
malang skali, kena buat working drawing entah apa. apa.
tak pasti =.='

sebenarnya yg happy tu bukan sebab dah siap smua tu.
jauh sekali sebab dapat balik awal harini.tapi ..
the unexpected things
happened today
really made my day. seriously.okai:D
im so thankful for that.
such a pleasing memories to be
reminisced during the upcoming holiday
(cewah! dah buat persediaan ni)

mcm ni actually:p

1)masuk workshop design.
2)oh yehh, another tiring dayyyy
3)plus boring pulak tu
4)tgh susun2 beg
5)okay budak2 DNI masuk
6)=.=' apelah yg best sgt ngn diorg ni
7)dah lah dia pun dah takde ecehceh
8)okay say hi sikit sikit kat diorg
9)start work
10) bertanya khabar kat geng seperjuangan DNI last year
11)gila concern sekarang ni
12)tolong tolong geng ni but kej dia sikit
13)borak depan tingkap
14)usha budak budak boys brigade kena torture.
15)kot lah. aku tak pasti
16)sekali pusing
17)tgk hero jalan sesorang towards the workshop
18)terkejut dalam hati
19) cover la wei. takkn nak terkinja kinja kot
20)okay buat tak tahu dulu
21) dia tetiba nk volunteer buat kerja bersama geng tadi
22)sebab dia sgt freeeee sekarang
23)okay sebagai seorg yg berwibawa
24)mari pura pura busy.
25)sbnrnya mmg busy
26) tapi sebab always near to the hero
27) tk rasa busy dah
28)rasa heaven jeeee;p


***
sebenarnya malas dah nak cerita. pembaca pembaca boleh create
cerita sendiri berdasarkan point di atas ya

sekian terima kasih daun keladi;D

let the pictures talk.

gembira sungguh dapat cable dari nani.err
pinjam je sbnrnya;p
so dpt upload pictures.

:)





ni time sesi manicure start:D
masing masing pilih nail polish






dan ini hasilnya:) bajet ah nak warna kasi
nmpk natural kan:D
cantik tak i pny kukukuku.




padahal sesi seterusnya smua bntai warna warni.
biru kuning segaaala=.='!







okay. jgn curiga. tu jemari kawan ya.
sebab tu putih melepak tetiba.hihi






haha. yg ni baru betul saya punya. cantik kan:D
dah bersih2 semua baru bahagia.
tetiba puji kuku sendiri=.='








*act byk lagi yg time facial and makeup.
tapi sbb horror-looks kan. tak jadi upload;p







okay dah lari tajuk gambar diatas, sicomelgomel ni pun nak masuk;p















dah. connection dah jeles. so bai! :D

oh penat

sangat, tulah muka bahagia minggu lepas balik awal, tidur awal, semua awal

harini ha! kan dah kena.
memang emo 100% lah aku tadi kat kelas.
buat kerja smua mcm tk ikhlas.
ok ikhlas lah dah nama pun projek aku-.-'
tapi serious penat gila even dah pekena nasi time lunch
bersama lauk peria pahit mcm nak gila
aku tk tahu apa masalah aku g order peria tu. first time kot?

-.-' dush.

apa apa pun, aku harap nk siapkan semua by esok.
walaupun harini hari yg penat,
aku takkan lupa kenangan harini.

WAH! 0.0
saya suka :D
tapi malangnya esok beliau keluar pegi mencari rezeki
tinggalkn dinda sorang

drfghjk. SEJAK BILA AKU JADI DINDA TAH.
aku kena stay skolah buat kerja dan beliau keluar sbb beliau amik HC
yg dah lepas beberapa mggu yg lalu
lalu beliau boleh bersuka ria dan curang serta merta,

ok tak. aku dah mngarut.

penat sgt kot.

livin life.

I can't pretend that my life's 'good' right now.
but i'll try to hide the awful parts of it.
I'll try to make myself happy and not tend to be recluse
not to mention, bein secluded frm others
i just hate that kind of feeling.
sometimes im tired of trying makin others happy
but sometimes i ended up with failure of doing that.

by tht time,
I alwys wish that THEY 'd come and give some courage
and make my life even brighter fruitful and enjoyable.

unfortunately, theres none of them shows their
care abt me. not even my bestfriend.
and somehow i feel like pinching myself
to ensure my existence in this world.

life is simple but its just not easy.



-fitrah-

herm,





now then i see the true colours of you.

eeeeeeeeeek -______-

flag day.

hey. Just got back from doing the C.I.P prog.
:) I was asked/forced to do somethg for the flag day so
that i could get more and more points for my cca points. hikes.
at first, i thought that we're(those who're participated in ths event)
going to do our cip stuff at the library since we gathered at the
lib before we start the flag day stuff
i was shocked when i discovered that we're supposed to do fund raising!
OHMY!=.='

'selama ni aku tgk orang skolah lain buat.harini aku pulak kene buat'

after i had done with the registration stuff, I walked with my new friend, erina:D
ok. I hve known her b4 but today I get to knw her even better:) I was waiting fr clara under the shelter when suddenly she texting me and said that she was in mrt( train) and heading off to somewhere. herm! so, i decided to go with Erina as my partner

(act its not necessary but yaaa. at least i have friend to
push me and FORCED me to collect the fund)

credit to Erina:) I told her tht i have no courage to approach strangers and ask them if they wud like to donate some money like errr.. but as she firced me again n again, I finally mustered up all my courage bcoz of her:D and of course, shes wayy better than me;)
myb i cud say tht our vision of the day is REST MORE,WORK LESS hahaha;D

fortunately, I met loads of generous people today:D one of the generous lady even donated 10 bucks! like whoa:D nonetheless,there were some of them even donated 10 cent. nvm as long as they were sincere, 10 cent could be significant for the needy kan. ecewah! aku ni.=.-'

so ya, to wrap up everythg, I could say
tht i had learned somethg today.
i met different type of people
and feel good after i finished the cip prog
at least, i did somethg to help those needy;0

herm, tired of smiling today
(mcm tk ikhlas je)
but yeah:D courtesy always comes first
when we re in need. mcm tak biasa.

bwek;p

oh FRIDAYFUN!

at first I was having a hard time to decide whether goin to sch or the navy day stuff stuff.We're invited since we could get special service from them;D coz we're special. YIKES.
I ve been for such event last year so I roughly can predict what gonna happen next.kononlah.
so I was supposed to go sch and then goin out to city hall blablabla for the saloon thingy. (the last day or the course) but im not really interested as i just tried manicure,facial,and pedicure a bit,plus FUN WITH MAKE UP STUFF. so I gonna PLAY again the same thing. play? mcm tknk belajar walaupun nama course. bagi lempang sikit;0 haha.

so pagi tadi dah bgun awal segala pkai uni segala. then ohmy! TAKNAK LAH G skola.
(ok tk belajar skrg musim aktivit yg sgt byk lagi penat)
(dah lah tak boleh pegi cca camp, nasib baik last year pernah experienced. takla kempunan)
so pergi lah navy day sbb patah hati dgn aktiviti skolah yg act boleh je enjoy next week-.-'

My second ride on navy CRUISE was absolutely an unforgettable memories for us:D
I played some games with little kids from us and japan plus thai. they were extremely cute and perky! I couldnt stop myself from giggling like mad. seriously FUN. I ate a lot as they told us that the all the food were halal:D I queued repeatedly to get myself for the yougurt with different flavours;) I had kiwi,honeydew and lychee mixed together at first. secondly with orea(it taste like mcflurry okay!) i cant recall what i ordered for the third one. haha.
and of course the food were SUPREMELY AWESOME!!!! :D

then went to an exhibition about navy blabla... then we watched some shows by the divers blablabla. (malasnya nk cerita sbb best sgt)
yg bestnya: by the time we reached the place tht we're supposed to sit coz the shelter were provided for the spectator), the whole seat was full! so yeah. I thought that i had to stand under the glaring sun and watch the shows. Surprisingly, one of the staff kot, approached us(me and my family) and said yeah come the seat were reserved :D when reaching the gate, the staff said eh they're vip(referring to us). Most of the people standing there waiting and queuing there were eying on us. HAHA. tahpape.


skipskipskip.

everything was FUN;D
precisely, it was like once in a life time experience! which i couldnt describe by words.
lagipun ada somethg2 related yg tk boleh bgtahu kat sini wakaka.

dah bai!

so random

life's like this:)

i remembered how awful I was 2 days ago
everything went so fast until I cant barely trace
when did I started to be normal again;)

em, I would like to share with you guys
what i ve done in 3 days
for post exam activities:)

on monday, we were learning about facial.
there's some steps before we do facial treatments.
blahblahblah. so I got FREE facial from my fellows,
and I did some of the steps to my friends
(massaging,cleansing,scrubbing, and etc)
since it was our first time doing all this stuff,
we didn't expect much from one another,
but we had much fun together;)
some pics were taken but i looked horrible as always. HAHA.

on the second day, we were taught to do make-up.
haha. interesting kan! so I was forced to be Karen's model aka 'bahan conteng'
Its been awhile since the last time i put on all those creepy stuff on my face.
but yesterday, everythg was surprisingly awesome. even though the result wasnt so good
but again, we HAD MUCH MUCH MUCH FUN! giggling while putting on the mascara,and
both of my eyes were smudged with the eye liner. YIKES!
and my lips turned chapped. er,side effect from the lipstick i guess?
so we tried most of the things given:D foundation, powder,blablabla.
I didnt curl my eye lashes but still looked fine:)
at last i looked like a ghost with the horror looked due to the excessive eye liner.
HAHA.
I loike:D

on the third day which is TODAY,
we continued on manicure!
HOHO! glad to say that this was the first time I was doing manicure on my nails.
haha. im not soo into self grooming stuff before this,but thru this course, I learned A LOT!
so today I felt extremely contented(!) I cant stop from scrutinizing on my finger nails
right after I finished doing the manicure on my nails.
er, most of the time I asked for help from my partner or the faci;0
and the result was freaking awesome! my nails were freaking neat and NICE okay!
I removed all the cuticles(which i just learnt today,) and continued with the subsequent steps.
until I got my superduper shiny nails plus the nails looking healthier okay.
I started to show off to my frens and mum:D hahaes. the teacher asked me to use the nail polish,
-.-'
enuff with that lols. i didnt continue further after buffing. imma good girl-no doubt:D


tmr and friday we'd continue with pedicure (if we'd like to)
imagine when we nid to take off the shoes and ........................ HAHA.
friday gonna do the wrap up of everythg.

herm!kinda cool;D the post exm activities ths year went(quite well)
and I could relaxed myself having special treatments from the saloon for a week! (YAY)
(sadly,everythg were only conducted in sch. so the ambiance was not so cool) haha
but we're goin to the real saloon ths friday:D
lets have some fun okay.

amboi amboi, exam 2 mggu relax berminggu minggu. cantik perangai. baguslah masa cuti nanti kena ganti seminggu buat practical yg tak siap=.='


BYE!

*___*

I know.
this week was supposed to be fun.fun.fun!
I relieved that exam is over.
and glad that AT LEAST i have done something on Sunday.
at least--"

I often expect that things are goin to be fine
and fun as I wished.
and now,realizing that 'most of the expected'
things happen another way round,
I feel like slapping myself.
now. yes. NOW.

about that.
I think now is the right time to
free all the feeling and stuff and stuff.
I was suffocated in that world.
seeing him just now
didn't make any difference.
he looked up and smiled.
oh btw. i guess it was bcoz of his frans
I was completely startled.
my heart beating so fast
and in instance i turned back
resisting myself from seeing him for
another two or three seconds more

I walked home alone.
and i felt lost.

not just because of that, but
act it was about everything.

I'll try my best to
cheer myself up.
yes this time,
Im doing it to myself .
I don't know why.
now,
I don't know why friends are called friends.
but I would like to have one, if i could.

*mixed feelings

wohoo!50 points!

hari hari ada blog pasal ada point kay.

hahas.

1)meeting Nannyyy around 1+

2)salah bus stop :D

3)and finally yeay! reaching vivo.

4)pusing satu vivo cari cinema.

5)padahal sebelah je. jalan yg kitorg lalu. (er jalan dlm vivo)

6)jumpa dah!tapi tk tahu nk tgk apa crita.

7)so random. the last song.

8) movie start pkl 1840. apa mahu buat. sekarang baru 1400++ kot.

9)jalan jalan cari somethng nk minum. like seriously panas sekarang ok.

10)er. sentosa jom!

11)ok dating kali ni sgt awesome. kalau buat filem pun laku.

12)shesh! tk bawak camera. so guna la phn.

13)jalan kaki pegi mcm mcm tmpt.and salah bas lagi

14)sebab bas tu free, mari kita round satu sentosa.

15)ok dah puas naik bas yg nyaman dari udara luar

16)naik train pulak. dan udara dia lagi heaven. ;]

17)yeay smpai vivo balik

18)malang sekali. tak tepat pada masanya.

19)sesi menambah ilmu bermula

20)terjah kedai buku

21)sesi berangan kaya turut bermula

22)selepas keluar dari creative shop entah apekebenda.

23)nak bagithu barangbarang kat situ best gila

24)tak habis lagi sesi berangan -masih-

25)yeay. dah sampai masa

26)masuk cinema.

27)sebab masih berangan, masing2 tertanya siapa nak duduk sebelah kita

28)mesti nk yang handsome

29)yang kayaa sudah tentu

30) doaa doaaa jangan yg errrr.. faham lah kan. cerita lovelove ni

31)ok sungguh adil ya. dua dua duduk sebelah perempuan.

32)hampa sikit,

33)takpe. pekena pop corn dan coke

34)sementara mengantuk tonton adverts yang tk putus putus,

35)entah bila cerita nak start

36)pop corn dah setengah.

37)ok start.

38) DANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG! CERITA TU EXTREMELY BEST OKAY! SILA TONTON. sgt bernas ajak ayah kamu kamu semua. sambut sekali walaupun nanti korang malu malu sikit bila smpai scene tak bertepatan citarasa mereka.

40)ok dah habis.

42)keluar keluar dah malam,

43)heh, hujan pulak tu.

44)redahhhhhh.

45)flashback moments.

46)tgk gmbar gambar yg dicaptured hari ni.

47)okay.byk gamba lawa. fewit.

48)sampai rumah

49)blogging!

50)no 39 takde sebab 38 panjang sgt.


sekian.esok sekolah.saya sedar.
pendek cerita, keluar harini even berdua je pun best!

I really had a quality time with her. (i hope she did feel the same)
plus having fun before we both get stress by the exam results starting from tmr.

YIKES!

cakap jelah tak.

aku ada part time job kat sini.
kerja melayan kerenah sikecil. -.-' tolong jgn bayangkan
aku sukahati gembira bersama kanak kanak umur muda yg comel
bau wangi lepas mandi ok. sila berhenti berangan.
kerja aku melayan rakan yg berjiwa kecil dan kadang kadang lebih annoying
daripada aku bayangkan ,terimakasih.

aku bukan nak kata apa. tapi aku selalu kalah dgn pujukan
aku cepat kesian biarpun muka garang. heh.
aku tak suka orang pujuk ku. bagi bagi lolipop menda. ish.-_- (takdela smpai cmtu)

tapi tapi tapi.
bila aku dah TERcakap yes aku akan menyesal di kemudian hari.
tu aku. orang yg memujuk akan rasa bahagia bila
aku terkena pujukan diorg.

dan aku,selaku org TERKENA PUJUK, akan rasa DSFGHKJ
apa yang aku dapat actually.bagi tahu sikit.? selain buang masa dan buang duit bila time makan. makan tu nikmat tapi selau jadi sebaliknya bila tgk duit berkurang.

bila fikir balik, aku rasa mcm tak ikhlas tolong orang orang mcm orang tu,
yelah, aku cakap yes sebab aku kesian dan bila aku oergi aku yg rasa annoying
da bila aku balik rumah aku stress dan rasa nk hantuk kepala dan cakap
tolong jgn ajak aku ikut kau lagi lepas ni ok?

lainlah kalau aku pergi smua kau support. dari duit, duit makan, rasa penat
(konon lepas penat kau ajak aku main game makan askrem bawah pohon cemara)


ke....

aku tahu aku tak ikhlas sikit bab ni.
tapi common sense.
kau tak rasa bersalah ke kalau orgorang dah mnhyusahkan diri beliau demi kau,
dan kau tak balas apa apa pun.
lainlah aku enjoy bagai nak gila time membantu, tapi yg tu impian
yang terjadi sebaliknya. salah siapa. sekarang.
beribu kali aku cuba. tolong enjoykan diri aku bila tolong orang.
tapi bila org yg dibantu sendiri musnah kan mood aku, celah mana aku nk enjoy?


aku nk cuba untk cakap tak bila kena tolong orang org mcm ni.
er bukan tolong sbnrnya mcm menghambakan diri pun ada.

ok pendek kata aku boleh tolong tanpa harapkan balasan (fewit)
tapi please! bila saya dah tolong, jgn buat muka jangan buat pasal
(ni dah gaya lepas geram ni) kan senang tu.
bahagia je. mcm over the moon habes;)


*tapi kalau aku yg ajak orang keluar lepastu aku sendirian berhad emo. ah tu cerita lain

:D
dan nak keluar ngn N harini.semoga berbahagia ya. kita berdua.membahagiakan diri masing masing. teheee.

wrap up

1. Went to Bugis with Clara and Cx. celebrating her birthday w/o buying anythg. yikes. sorry cx:( i'd try my best to find somethng for you:D for belated birthdy present. perhaps?

2. kitty looked extremely dashing yesterday. haha. next time helo me put on the eye lashes kay! mine longer:D hahas

3. supremely tiring day. i slept early after reading few pages of teen berries -.-'

4. might be goin out again with Nanny. :D haha. i'm short of money btw,so we decided to leave house aftr lunch. saving. cling!cling! $.

5. another 2 more weeks before holiday. lets enjoy! haha:0



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6. salam sayang sgt sgt and thnksss a lot kat org org jauh yg hantar msg. tetiba byk msg pop-up kat phn screen smpai terkinja kinja i jawab. ok tergedikgedik sbnrnya.

7. misi nak join diorg pegi PD lepas exm:D lepas spm pegi SG ok? apakata? haha.
(tahulah tak boleh.tahu tahu)

8. jasmin prom night! dah lah last 2 year tu aku tk pegi (cewah) so harapan sgt mnggunung sbb yg tahun ni punya mesti boleh almaklumlah hujung tahun kan. (wakakaka) siap dah pilih baju ok sbb theme: candy!

9. boleh ke aku pergi smua smua ni. -.-' dan aku rasa aku dah obses balik nak balik. nak balik ngn diorg smpai aku mimpi jumpa semua warga jasmin2. i wanna go home!


bai.

day out,

sibs day out was FUN FUN FUN:D

i keep on laughing until i feel like dying. serious.
gonna celebrate CX's birthdy tmr:D


bye!

my rival part 1.

haha lepas fren rival pulak.lepas ni apa lagi ya.

mcm ni. takde lah rival sgt:D
tapi mcm err kind of.

dia ni org yg weirdos. Seriously. OKAY. no joke.
then lately dia flirt dgn __
kemudian dia chnge relationshp stat.

dan kini aku jeles serta merta.

LIKE WTH.

even aku tau it wont happen! YEAH!


chill kay. (cooling down) bye

friday morning

just checked my phone.


OHMY!,

kawan part 1.

sejak da habis exam ni.meh kita smbung emo.
eh tak.nak buat karangan;0
semalam, seriously tk boleh tido. entah kenapa.
mcm macam aku fikir. WALAUPUN paper harini should be senang.
patut lah aku tk boleh tido. rupanya ya amat susah.
ok bukanbukan=.=' then, teringt pasal someone. fewit sikit*
meh cerita kenanganberangan ok dah dah. terus cerita sekarang. cerita ni jadi
entah berapa rapa tahun lepas.semestinya,time tu jadi kat skolah lama.-.-'

satu hari, sepatutnya menjadi hari paling best dlm life aku. ok tk lah PALING tapi yelah paling membanggakan konon sikit. so hari tu, aku kena pergi amik sijil sempena watikah pelantikan jadi pembimbing rakan sebaya.;p er bukan aku je. aku,kawankawan yg sama pangkat darjat dan matahabat. (ish bahasa..) ok. ada pengawas pusat sumber ada pengawas smua smua lah pendek cerita. so kira hari watikah tu abru pakai uniform betul betul.baju ungu, kain hitam kasut hitam. kira hari sebelum tu aku menikmati hari hari terakhir mnjadi murid putih. oh tak murid berbaju putih kain biru muda lalalalala. ok pastu nak dijadikan cerita,baju smua mmg dah siap. eksaited tk memasal nk tggu hari behagia sgt tu.(hari watikah pelantikan) aku tk beli kasut hitam. sbb serious tak sempat. mcm serabut sikit time tu. lgpun rasa masih cool lagi sbb teringat aku ada simpan kasut hitam dlm stor. kasut sekolah rendah kot. masa nasyid dulu kala. =.=' (apasal aku nmpk org angkat kening bila baca aku dulu masuk nasyid ni? kehkeh. so THE DAY BEFORE baru nk carik kasut. ok fine. aku tgk kiri tgk kanan. oh cantik lagi kasut ni. boleh pakai. YAY.

tiba hari yang dinantikan, aku bangun sangat awal. bersiap mcm pengantin walaupun nak pakai uniform skolah yg sama beza cuma warna. aku sarungkan stokin hitam capai kasut pakai dua dua. kejap kejap toleh cermin .( ah! teruja) smbil aku jalan jalan sekitar rumah sementara tggu bas sekolah sampai, aku terperasan. OHMY! tapak kasut sebelah dah NAK TERCABUT. ok ok. chill. aku lari selongkar stor nk carik gam yg warna kuning geli geli tu nk gam time tu gak.YES jumpa! (doa dlm hati biar bas datang lmbt sikit aku tgh bertukang nih) sekali bila bukak penutup gam tu, OHMY! gam tu dh keras! tk boleh guna tak boleh pakai! mengikut nafsi aku yg tak silap aku masa tu aku form 1, aku capai gam kertas. TAK KIRA. so smbil godek2 gam yg dah keras tu, akhirnya berjaya lah sikit nk selamatkan kasut tu. then nmpk kasut sebelah tercabut. dfghjk. APA MALANG SANGAT NI. try try.repair repair. bas sampai. shesh! aku lari naik bas. dgn kedua dua belah kasut yg hampir tercabut. aku smpai skolah muka cuak GILA. ramai yg tanya. KENAPA. aku ckp kasut tercabut. masing masing hanya tahu CAKAP. cakap dan cakap. ada yg bagi simpati la ape lah. tp tk buat apa pun-.-' ok tiba kat satu org ni, aku namakan dia W dia betul betul amazing. dia datang dan salahkan aku. KENAPA TAK BAGITAHU DIA KASUT AKU PUTUS. aku dah emo. dah la kasut cabut.dia marah aku pulak. tp bila dia ckp kalau dia tahu,dia akn bawak kasut dia untuk aku. aku terharu. serious. yg tak boleh bla pulak tu, watikah pelantikan tu. bukannye ada pengawas pengawas je. SATU SKOLAH TGK. aku kena jalan macam model entah berapa puluh meter dari pentas penyampaian sijil, dan kiri kanan ada penonton selaku murid murid biasa,then kita kena naik tangga dan baru dpt peroleh sijil.betapa mencabarnya.bayangkan.

nk dijadikan cerita, majlis tersebut berlangsung lepas rehat rasanya. so lepas perhimpunan kita masuk kelas. dan aku masih cuak mcm nak pitam bila tgk keadaan kasut. bygkan aku jalan seret seret sbb dh tercabut tapak? dan beribu org tny kenapa(betap concern nya diorg) tapi lepastu diorg just smbung buat muka cuak bersama jeh. choi. so si W tadi, dia pun pengawas. so mmg tk bleh ah nk share2 kasut ke ape. nak naik pentas bersama kan-.-' jadi masa sebelum rehat, ada kelas. tp dgn keadaan kusut time tu. aku tk fokus. mmg nk ngis.okay. so W kata jom g bilik KH.
aku mcm tercengang. bilik KH ada tempat pinjam kasut berwrna hitam yg sgt diperlukan disaat inikah? kitorg mintak izin dari cikgu, dan kitorg berlari sepantasnya ke bilik kh. aku sabut kasut time tu jugak sbb nk lari kan. aku smpai sana, aku tanya. kita nak buat apa ni W? dia cakap carik paku. kita paku kasut kau. mybe dia boleh melekat. aku terdiam. kenapa kau sorg je yg snggup tolong aku bersusah time ni? sedngkn beriban org tny aku pasal kasut ni dan akhirnya kau sorg yg willingly tolong aku. ohmy. baiknya kau. (tp tk la cakap kat dia. sbb ego la sikit tgh emo kan) so cikgu kat bilik kemahiran hidup tnya apasal n bla bla bla. kotrg pun crita blablabla. mcm mcm ah try guna. SO its like finally. dekat sejam jugaklah duduk bertapa kat workshop KH semata mata nk selamatkan kedua dua belah kasut. akhirnya berjaya (malangnya tk berjaya sgt. cuma keadaan kasut tersebut sgt sgt ok dari tadi)
masa dinantikan dah sampai. aku jalan sgt sopan. perlahan gila kot. boleh sesak nafas si penyampai hadiah nk tggu aku smpai kat beliau kot.? heh. bila smua dah selesai aku lega.
esok terus beli kasut baru. sekian.


so.semalam aku teringt smua smua ni. aku baru sedar. W tu kawan terbaik aku pernah jumpa.
kalau bukan kerana kasut malang tu, mungkin aku tk boleh pilih siapa sebenarnya kawan yg sebenar benar okay.kalau aku ni bukan sesiapa untuk dia, mungkin dia tk balas msg aku secara drastik semalam. dah lah aku hntar pukul 1.30 pagi. mcm kesian ok aku kacau dia.-.-' dah berapa puluh hinggit kot dia habis msg ngn aku. aku tk suka susahkan org mcm dia. tapi dia yg tunjukkn betape die snggup nk bersusah untk aku.

btw. thnks. u're my bestie. forever.dia.syazwani izzati

back to the normal life.

so called*



okay.dah lama kot aku tk jumpa diorg diorg ni.
org terdekat yet still jadi yg terjauh. ohmy*
Nny and afrina.

nanti lah esok lusa mungkin.
tu pun kalau diorg still nak jumpa
wah. cerita nk sedih je doh.
er,mungkin sbb mcm dah dekat
seminggu tk jumpa diorg

not even at sch.
jgn kata nk terserempak=.='

so jumaat ni rasanya misi mengemas buku yg berterabur,
jemput dtg kerumah saya kalau anda rajin nk membantu
even untuk melihat sahaja YA:)
sabtu,misi hang out.
walaupun aku sedar duit dah tkda.
tapi demi celebrate bday yg berkenaan,mungkin aku pergi kot.

choi.

ahad. ada sapa sapa nk ajak dating?
wakakka:D

kemudian nak buat sesi BALIK LAMBAT MCM SEBULAN YG LEPAS
*ni yg malas nak buat ni. kerja tk siap siap. asyik balik lmbt. kang cekgu emo ngn aku kang
tak pasaalll je

lepastu misi CIP punya kerja. si bestie sesenang
hati letak nama aku suruh stayback on monday.
0.0 baru nk chill! apa ni apa ! (emo)

pastu next saturday dah kena g another CIP.
mcm homaigod okay.=.='

lepas tu, kerja kerja elective
bukan nama sebenar kerjaya lepas exam.
so misi stress free bermula mcm biasa.
skolah but ths and that=.=
lepastu misi meryu rayu NAK JOIN CAMP CCA! (mesti buat)

wakakakaka:D bab menggatal mmg.
ni idea bestie lg sorg.



lama betul nk cuti
tgu lah misi percutian tk sedar diri nk exam tahun ini,

BYE.

ada lagi sehari.

esok dah habis exam.
kepada rakan rakan taulan
chey.



sorry sorry yg tk balas msg
yg tk terlayan ke
buzz sini sana ke
yg dh hangin satu badan ngn aku ke

ok dh yg apa apa.
sorry.

lepas ni kita horei horei ya.
konon2 dah habis exam terus.

semalam aku dah NAK balut satu hadiah misteri,
tggu lah esok lusa nk carik lagi hadiah hadiah yg sgt misteri,
untuk orang orang misteri. :)
mcm tak sabar nak balik rumah sendiri.
yehay!


bye

tsst,

learn to wait. it's a skill.




*finishing exam week
*post exam activities
*exam result
*holiday
*happiness
*meeting people
*spendthrift moments
*good friendship




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and you




wouldn't you just imagine that it was quite sometime before
I could get something that I've been looking forward to?



end.

tulis kena random

lately rasa mcm emo sikit.
taklah byk.
cuma macam malas nak buka mata besar besar.
tgk siapa siapa yg disekeliling.
hari.hari.
hari ini. aku tak perlukan mereka.
sebanyak mana mereka tk perlukan aku.
kalau esok aku perlukan mereka.
aku carik mereka sebagaimana diorg mencari aku.

hari ni sama jugak. pegi sekolah.cecah kaki smpai sch truss
senyumsenyum
aku suspek ada jugak hati,hati yg terasa nk menyepak aku time tu
kot. entahlah.
tak jumpa muka muka yg dikenali, terus jalan straight.
smpai tempat duduk, trus duduk.
tgk pagar. * seperti biaasa.
oh takdatang lagi,or mybe tkde paper?
kahkah, aku ni. suka stalk dia.tau.

aku rasa ada sesuatu jadi kat sekeliling aku
yg aku teringin nak tahu
tapi tiada usaha untuk buat aku tahu perkara sebenar.
penat. rasanya.
biarlah. orang tak tahu baca hati kita
jauh minyampang nak baca minda kita
apatah lagi bab bab perasaan. mmg fail!


hari hari macam ni
sebab aku pun sama.


sekian.
*****************************************************************************
kitty,stop translating my blog.
I know u're not gonna understand this post:D
haha. I'd write in english if i want u to read somethg here:)
kay:)
I just translated this post just now and i laughed like mad.
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what a life.

losing a friend was absurdly, expected.
It's like err.. an envisage or something?
hush.
somehow I think its fair enough to put the blame on
all social net.
which had immensely affect my lively life.
I just hate them for certain reasons.
but still. I have insufficient excuse
to make myself stay away from all this craps. ok. for me SN just
making me feel like being with my lovely people
at every nanosecond of my life.
sudah. pembuka kata panjang berjela.
cerita senang, lately rasa mcm rindu rinduan kat ramaiii orang.
seriously. so yeah. i messaged them and received tons of great feedback from them
aku assumed diorg fikir mcm ni sblum msg aku:D
I GONNA SPEND SOME MONEY FOR MY long-distance FRIEND;) YAY.
tapi tapi. lately jugak (act dah lama)sbb ASDFBFNHMGFDSHJ punya social networking,
aku jadi panas. fuyoh. sikit*
macam sedih kot.seriously. AKU DAH SEDAR BENDA NI DAH LAMA.
aku buat tk tahu je mcm :ok takpe takpe. dia ada life dia gak.
gila dah aku try. kita kena memahami. * aww banyak
tapi kan, ape masalah aku nk telan sebijik sebijik SEGALA penyakit HATI NI.
secara paksa pulak tu
while dia still tak faham atau buat buat tak faham atau mmg sbnrnya TAK PERASAN?
mcm aku dah lama tak kasi hints?ke? kot? err.
mcm dia kesah aku punya perasaan.
kan?
so yeah. aku diam je.
kadang kadang aku rasa mcm berharap aku tk pernah tahu
apa apa tentang benda yg boleh mengeratkan hubungan kau dan aku cewah*
thru internet ni.
pendek kata boleh tak kalau BAB baca benda yg
buat aku emo emo ni, boleh tak kalau aku jadi tkde perasaan kejap>?
sbb kadang kadang aku rapuh. aku kalah ngn kesabaran sendiri.

harini sekali lagi.
aku baca something. mmg bukan dari dia, tapi BERKAITAN dengan.
masa aku baca aku dah tersentak. aku mcm .. er OKAY. okay.
'dia buat mcm tu dgn_ tapi mana untuk aku?'
aku tahu ni bunyinya jealous.
tapi terang terang cerita, aku bukan jeles
cuma mcm err. rasa tak berharga pulak
tapi biarlah. sebab bila semua ni jadi, at least aku sedar.

macam.macam.

sampai satu masa, aku rasa aku bodoh.
bila baca aku tulis my bestfriends
entah bila dia wujud entah bila dia hilang
kali ni, aku telan sekali lagi. semua.

*end*

no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while

erk.

dengan segala hormatnya.
time belajar social studies tamat-_-

sungguh. aku menipu.
hari isnin ada paper SS.
masih buat muka selmaba tk nk hafal notes
yg tebal.menebal.

cerita best.lupa nk cakap.
kakak tersayang (aww sikit)
tetiba aku ada kakak-.-'
ye kak awinn dah add balik dlm fb selepas
tetiba hilang time msg.
rindu rinduan banyak*

lepastu.
semalam aku tk boleh tidur.
mungkin rungsing pasal mila.
jealous agaknya. wakakaka* mila aku tahu kau baca.

then sbb tk bleh tido,aku buat notes social studies.
mmg muka rajin sekarang-_-
aku cuak bila tgh2 syiokkk main fb
tetiba org buzz aku.
hantar chat tny tny pasal exam.
aku histeria. lalu sign out dgn serta merta.
ada lagi 4 paper tak seberapa susah (ecehceh)
next week.
lepastu heaven.

walaupun* mid year je.
rasa bahagia amboi bukan kepalang.
dah 2 hari aku sakit perut. tak tahu apasal.
dah isi perut ngn macam macam
assumed yang sakit perut sbb TAK CUKUP MAKAN
choi(!)

tgh baca notes;D

*jgn ganggu*

ok fine.

aku tak suka bila aku rasa
takdijemput.
like. eh grrrrr.

tapi aku buat muka cool
sebab aku pun tak rasa aku akn pegi
if dijemput.
aku suspek ada yg nk jemput aku last minute
wakakaka,
takpe. aku fokus kat menda lain sekarang.


harini paper mcm membunuh
tapi yg bestnya ada satu soalan ni 4 markah
yg kena mngena pasal cylinderlah cone lah.-.-'
ok masa first time
tgk soalan mmg dah nak pengsan dah.
mcm TERKENA abes ah.
aku teringt baru tadi aku memandang sinis kat sorg budak
yg nk test kawan dia hafal tak formula cylinder.
(ye aku tak hafal) aku pndg sinis sbb aku rasa eeek
cylinder pun nk hafal keh.

so 5 minit sblum kena hantar paper,
tulisan aku dah mngalahkan budak dokterdokter.
mmg serious aku harap harap cikgu memahami,
-.-'
takde makna lah time tu correction tape ke liquid paper ke
smua tu buang masa.

habis aku conteng sana sini.
reka sendiri FORMULA cylinder.
mcm berpeluh gak aku try
smpai aku kira kira
tgh click2 button calculator tu en

masa nak tekan EQUAL sign,
siap doa.BAGI LAH KEJUTAN. MASA DAH TAKDA NI!

tada! power betul aku. kejutan terus. kalau
boleh nk jerit.
sbb jawapan dia kena AS SHOWN so mesti la
trus tahu jwpn aku betul ke tak en

:D

bahagia tk terkata, selamat 4 markah aku,
wakakaka,

tapi ada soalan pasal kad ape tah.
soalan 1 markah je.
tapi aku tak tahu nk buat-.-'
lempang sikit.aku tggl je.

fuyoh.
time oral english lagi berani.
aku ckp ngn penuh confident.
rasa power pulak. walaupun tersasul
serious aku ckp time reading punya aku getar wei!
:D awwwwwwwwwwwww.

splashy friday.

I started my day by spreading smiles
to all of my acquaintance, before and right after
i have finished
my maths paper.
that's one of my aim in my life
making love with people
and try to make them feel good to be part of me.
even if they don't even care my existence in their life?

LIKE I CARE.

I pray devotedly
so that my wishes will be granted.

I have tried my best to attain my goals for the
so called gerak gempur semalam :D
when suddenly I heed
to my heart
saying
i should stop doing all this.
it's the matter of time.

and everything is going to happen naturally.

I looked to the sky and queried myself.

Till when?

I hate the word 'waiting'
but when i have to,
I will try to understand what's the
meaning of 'waiting' in my life.

I just cant pretend though I try to hide.
but yes im still trying.

tgh try ni

misi gerak gempur tak glemer.
cewah.
=.='
actually aku dh penat ngn smuaa smua ni.
ulang- semua smua.
so yeah. mesti buat misi.
dimana matlamatnya adalah berjaya melepasi smua rintangan
yg sukar nak dilepaskan.
misi pertama dah HAMPIR berjaya semalam
rasa gembira sikit
tapi rasa jauh jauh tu ada hampa hampa sikit.
almaklumlah kata percubaan pertama.
hem!

harini mcm berjaya sikit
dgn bantuan jadual exam yg agak terabur
so misi tu berjaya tanpa sebarang gerak gempur.
senang crita automatic ah.
0.0

aku keluar dewan mungkin 30 min lebih awal
dan dia duduk entah mana mana sbb
shifting place due to the different paper
taken on the same day. and so and so and so.

ada sapa sapa dpt teka apa misi aku sekarang?

oh sudah ni bukan kuiz. bye.

oh.

tak sia sia google pasal meander semalam.
soalan pertama sekalik pulak tu=.='
dapat lah jawab ngn jaya.muka over confident boleh pass punyalah
aminnn.

last last masa CHECKing soalan development kan.
aku terbuat jawapan new zealand developed country.
padahal last minute aku tgk HDI dia JAPAN lagi higher.
di saat aku buat muka cuak terus ku dgr suara sepoi2 bahasa cakap

OK TIME'S UP

aku pun -________- hampa.
harap harap yg lain aku betul smua.
punya lah bngga siap dgn jayanya smua soalan sebentr tadi.
lainkali kena check 10 kali setiap soalan smpai puas. shesh.

so yeah pagi tadik adik aku membebel.
shesh. sekarang panas.duk dlm kelas berpeluh peluh.

dgn bangganya cakap

'eh sekolah kau takde air-cond ke?'

wakakaka. aku mmg serah muka nk kena pelempang ngn adik aku time tu.
sbb skrg time exam pun boleh freezing tahap sejuk beku.
sekarang ni lepas habis jawab paper
boleh pulak ada time usha utk jamu mata
jenis,warna,texture
dan kehalusan dan secara tk lngsung boleh
tgk 'taste' orang org sekeliling yg
menayang sweater 0.0
sekali sekala jadi stalker takpekan. wakakaka
(sebab segala ni lah jadik tragedi time's up) sheesh!
dah oi. esok physic. tgh google pasal light and electric energy. serious blank.
cikgu masuk kelas bagi nota macam aku dah sedia paham dari rumah doh.

bai.

geog (!)

ohyeah. since i cant resist from
NOT USING comp,
i forced myself to do somethng beneficial for
my tmr's paper which is geog=.='

i ve reread about meandersandoxbpwlakes like thousand of times
yet i still dont undersntd-.-'
so yeah let's google!







and

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oxbow_lake




tada! :D bye

:) like finally.

i thnk this one will be the last post.

i just text my kitty.she's baking cupcakes!
like(again?)
hoping that she would bring a cupcake for me:D
i know she's a good baker!
yummy.

I spent almost one whole day playing with my hamster today
as if like : eh tomorrow is holiday! YAY =.=
sad to say tomorrow i gonna start the very SECOND paper of the of the MIDYEAR exam.

i have taken the first paper - last tuesday.

and i gonna refrain myself from using comp for the next 2 weeks
which i KNOW would be absolutely impossible.
okayy guys! Goodluck yay.














*it feels so good and it must be love coz my heart is filled with you right now.

saturday morning.

now im counting every second waiting for the day
of meeting the lovely people.
I just missed them as much as they missed me;0 I guess.

I hope they both can stay here longer.
but yeah. =.=' 5 days 4 night is good enough actually
its only because of me. the greedy lil girl whom always wanting more
like kind of idiotic.

i woke up at about 10+ today
and i felt weird.. my eyes swollen like a panda bear.
shesh. yestrdy i went to bed at 3+
I just cant resist myself frm stop using this effing lame man-made creatures(!)
what a waste if time.
I revised Geog for yesterday and finally I understnd the whole chapter of development!
at first i read ch9 The reasons of uneven development and bla bla. OKAY. i feel a bit relieved since before ths i have no idea hw am i suppose to revise every inch if ths topic.
which is related to ch8,Development. yay me. I love ch 8;-)
and the worse part is ch10.

'how to alleviate the uneven development in the world'

and i wass like.. err. err..
so i read through all the notes. summarize some of the parts
and i love ME for doing somethg to help myself,YAY.
and i have covered the chp on food variations;)
i gonna revise phys after ths(!) scary kay.
and i have printed out the notes from (e) for managing bonding thing thing chapter
obviously i have not read the notes:D
and after a few hours of rummaging my so called book-shelf:)
i managed to find notes for math,chemistry,and social studies and river management! which are going to be extremely essential for the exam's week:D haha
(HAPPY FACE:)
and i hid the notes for design somewhere and i'll try to find it a day before the exm so that
i wont mess up my mind with the notes for the last paper of the week! :D
yay me.


tgk lah smua ni. dah dekat exam aku semua cuak.
kesian.

4th post:)

i hope ths will be THE LAST one.
yaa actuallyy not suppose to be. takpelah.
tapi the 4th is for someone.
and mesti dia tahu siapa dia.
harap*


first of all, mmg aku terasa.yes bab ni TERASA banyak.
sbb dah rasa sumthg wrong tadi tapi sbb rasa macam
kay hope tht she'd understnd
just ignore jelah.
okay fine.
its not that I DONT WANT.
and i really thought that u want to study malay language.
and at the same time masa nak balas punn,
macam eh. takkn malay pun nk study sama.

and im not being sarcastic.
=.=' somehow ppl misinterpreted what i meant by joking?
or maybe i have thrown harsh jokes towards you
even if i know wht kind of ppl are you.
so yeah. can easily put the blame on me now. my fault.

and second, we talk, we say, we do things that we don't even know what's the consequences.
not only me, but you and others.

we may not find the flaws in ourselves
or we may not ADMIT the wrongdoing that we have done before.
but people can see what we re doing is totally opposite of what they want.


as im the eldest here.
I just dont want to worsen this matter

I can still be there if u want to.
and always be apart from you
as u cant stand with the bitchy parts of me


last but not least. Sorry.