*___*

I know.
this week was supposed to be fun.fun.fun!
I relieved that exam is over.
and glad that AT LEAST i have done something on Sunday.
at least--"

I often expect that things are goin to be fine
and fun as I wished.
and now,realizing that 'most of the expected'
things happen another way round,
I feel like slapping myself.
now. yes. NOW.

about that.
I think now is the right time to
free all the feeling and stuff and stuff.
I was suffocated in that world.
seeing him just now
didn't make any difference.
he looked up and smiled.
oh btw. i guess it was bcoz of his frans
I was completely startled.
my heart beating so fast
and in instance i turned back
resisting myself from seeing him for
another two or three seconds more

I walked home alone.
and i felt lost.

not just because of that, but
act it was about everything.

I'll try my best to
cheer myself up.
yes this time,
Im doing it to myself .
I don't know why.
now,
I don't know why friends are called friends.
but I would like to have one, if i could.

*mixed feelings