actually i wanna keep myself from updating
my blog till i finally completing my exam's week.
but somehow, I just couldn't bear with my own thoughts.
haunting me every nanosecond and yeahs. I feel weird.
lets not talk about exam by the way.
everything was JUST FINE. no worries.
It's not considered as an EXAM if it's way too easy.
so yeahs. so far for all subject that i've taken..
It's merely an average. Well i hope my result wont be
as what i said : AVERAGE.
hurm, back to the main point. (my littlest confession)
recently, i often reflect myself
not in the mirror, neither on the back of the spoon while i was having my lunch
I was reflecting about my attitude. weirdos.
I feel sorry to myself. and sorry to the people around me
now, Im hating a person within a second and freak out over something
without the specific reason. :/
right now im still pondering about this
at times, when i started to think about this i often remind myself NOT TO
repeat this. and forgiving peppos is the easiest way.
but then once i said to myself
'oh fine let's start everythg all over again'
my mind would definitely said NO.
it's either because i just dont want to be hurt
or mybe, i just dont want to waste my time
forgiving the people that should not be forgiven
humm..
again, i dont want to be different.
I wish i could restart my life all over again.
I want new life. new friends. new acquaintance .
new ambience. it's not about being rich/popular
it's about being appreciated by people and
being a person who can be respected. I want to lead a good life
today. tomorrow and forever.
I want to erase all my mistakes as if i have an eraser
to ensure that this can be done in instant.
lastly, I hope all my wishes is not insurmountable
but everything seems too vague. away from me.
