skrg malas nak update myself with anythg. phone.facebook and stuff. i suka tumblr. tgk picture je-.- lagipun phone macam not the main necessity dah skrg. like wth? tgk phone pun boleh sakit hati. ini kan pula mggunakan perkhidmatan phone? lets double the madness of feeling sick using phone. okay gila meroyan agaknya. tgk phone boleh sakit hati. ah tak payah faham,tak perlu.
second. boleh tak jangan jadi dua muka? dah ada satu muka guna satu muka. kalau buat dua muka mesti slalau tak jadi. as what ive posted on facebook yesterday. no one can PHOTOSHOP their ugly behavior. too bad ya girl? ehem*
okay lets continue. x sabar nak tunggu sch reopen. i realized tht masa skrg bergerak teramatlah pantas. to be frank, i x lah looking forward to this 2011. tp being grateful, i wanna say alhamdulillah. panjangg umur ya :') smpai jugak ke 2011. bytheway. i mmg tk sabar nak lari dari tempat ni. boleh kata semua sekali x best. kalau ada yang best maybe 20% dan another 80% memang lah GHJKL.
jangan mencarut. dosa.
so. apa kata di hari pertama 2011 ni saya harap i akan lebih cool bila problemo de amor dengan udak budak immature seperti tutt.. okay. saya pun bukan lah matured lah gila. selalu jugak nak tgk spongebo. slalu jugak nak beli pencil box ada gmbar helo kity. selalu jugak rasa jealous bila tgk org lebih sikit(well this is what kids always do. lepastu nangis)
-_-
so yeah. cool tak cool tak i skrg? i rasa tk cool. jom jalan. hujan ni. ah peduli.
bye
1st post
my very first post on 2011:D hello hi, yesterday was not a good day. i mean i didnt really enjoy my very last day of 2010. too bad yeah. i dont want to put blame on others over this thang. but yeah.
i miss my oldies. somehow i regretted choosing this way. if i didnt, i might enjoy my life to the fullest. here, friends can be counted using fingers. see? and very little of them showed up when they should be next to me in need. hush.
i dont know when and how am i gonna stop rattling over the topic of friend. hush.
tomorrow, im not gonna start a new day. all days are the same. its just how i choose to make it colorful as what i ve imagined.
im havin bad flu and sore throat since yestrday night. what a good start ya?
bye
azam saje.
i will try my best to be ready,be prepared for everything. i wanna be neater and will make sure my room wont be like a mess as always. i wanna save money. i
will stop thinking over the friends who are not really meant to be mine. get it? i mean like im hoping somethg from them, i wanna feel appreciated. but eventually, after almost 2 years living far away from them. i think im not gonna believe in long distance camaraderie anymore. at times, they are just crap. they come and utter the words i miss you like freakin much and bila nak balik a
nd stuff. but really. i know they just beguiled me with their sweet talk. i wonder if i still had a good friend? i mean really a good friend. well i dont hink so. co
z if i do, this blog wont be existed at all. i prefer to verbalize my thoughts to a friend. but. . . . yeah. what ever. even my bestFRIENDS didnt text me back recently. hoho. theres no such thing as BESTFREN FOREVER. crap!
(i hope this post will not hurt any of my friends feeling. its just the matter of fact)
next. i wanna lose weight. im so grateful with my current weight. but i think i'd feel much better if i can shed some:/ i dont want to be freakin skinny.coz i dont
think skinny=PRETTAY. jyeah. but at least, i wanna have a weight which make me feel healthy and 'light' haha! and wanna have long legs too! im shrinking these few days;( or i think my 2 lil brother grow up too fast. and now, im way shorter than them.
. wth?
next. i'll try not to stop read and read a lot of books. well i hope
so. and yeah this is a must:
get a good result for O's. ok at this time im not very confident
ab
out myself. seeing all the tough questions, i just hope that i'd hav another chance to say no to O level. what ever
dah lah tadi cakap jgn panjang berjela. ok fine. bye people!
azam tahun baru nak save. gmbr macam ni tk boleh ada dah tahun depan.
mesti bawak beg plastik merah yg pasar malam tu.
sebab beli barang kena cheapos. jgn membazir ya adik adik
nothing better to do.
imma independent shopper too!
this is the reason why i really love to go shopping alone:D especially the FIRST scene -_-
:)
ok video lagi satu saja post sbb suka:D
mr5.
hi hello.
1) still remembered hari hari lastt at sch. i pergi kelas dia. then yaa as always, kawan2 dia dah hu-ha. and i punya kawan yg dah start tahu pasal benda ni macm doubled the hu-ha. then bila i jalan sbelah dia i rus masuk kelas dia. yelah masa tu ada remedial ke ape tah. then i dgr kawan dia cakap this girl. whic is of coz referring to me.. then i tk pndg langsung diorg.then dah masuk kelas my kawan cakap mr tgk i smpai masuk kelas. ok tu satu benda yang i suka tapi bila kawan i cakap macam tu kena lah jual mahal lalu jawab: oh rilly. i think u got the wrong person.
ngehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
2) masa masa tgh khusyuk macam ni. mesti dia kena pop out. kalau tk mesti tak jadik. lalu port paling best untuk igt balik memori daun pisang ke apa semestinya libbry. as always.
ada lah dlm dua kali dia duduk dpn meja i. atauu cerita sebenarnya i tk pernah nmpk dia duduk memebelakangkan meja i. mesti kena depan ok. mesti. i suka tu. tp mesti kena jual mahal jugak. lalu i slalu pergi tempat menyorok,iaitu tempat baca majalah. =.=
tapi satu hari i nmpk dia tetiba pop out keluar macam antivirus software yg pop out bila ada virus kat comp. tp ni bila ada rindu ;a kot. ok geli dah. lepastu i dah malu.
ada jugak sekali lagi dia buat macam tu. muka i dah merah dan terkejut habis. lepastu kawan i dgn takde rasa malunya menambahkan perasan malu i terhadap mr. lalu dia SHOUTED. aka jerit. Hey why suddenly u look shocked like u just saw a ghost?
and i was like.. boleh tak cover sikit nada suara tu.? lalu secara tak semena menanya. mestilah mr dah tahu yg aku terkejut tgk dia tiba tiba ada dpn i macam i terkjut tgk hantu. baguss .
3) ada satu hari i nampak dia bagi sthg kat cikgu. mite be his hwork. lepastu i nmpk ada budak lain approach cikgu tu jugak. and the teacher was like yelling at them kot. lps tu i cuma dgr nama mr. sebab cikgu tu puji yang mr dah hntar homework. dalam hati wah berbunga nyaa sebab mr ni rajin orgnya. kekeke
4) masa ni i mmg jalan laju sebab i tahu dia ada kat hall. and i was on my way to the design lab. lepastu kawan i yg tk tahu apa siap cakap wth u cepat sgt? kelas lmbt lagi start. tanpa segan n silu i cakap i wanna see someone. lepastu budak tu macam : siapa???
ok lepastu i diri dekat hallways antara design lab and hall. lepastu i nmpk kawan2 mr dah rilex2 kat luar. lepastu i nmpk mr keluar dr hall kot untuk pggil kawan dia suruh masuk dlm hall KOT. lepastu bila mr pusing nak masuk balik dlm hall dia pndg kiri and there you go. dia nmpk lah i mmg tgh diri tgh2 tu mmg nak tgk dia pun. surprisingly, dia tak jadi masuk hall. tp instead dia berhenti dpn pintu and diri jugak smbil menghadap i. bayangkan? nasib baik jarak kitorg jauh lah gila. macam 10-20 meter. kalau tk i dah pengsan serta merta tgk dia buat mcm tu ok?
5) siapa kata kitorg tk pernah pegi tgk movie? ok mmg tak. tp masa leisure time untuk koko kitorg boleh pilih untuk tgk movie dlm design lab. lepastu bila cikgu tnya siapa nak anime. dia and 2/3 org ckp nak. lepastu cikgu suruh berdiri siapa nak tgk anime. mmg dia sorang je yang bangun. lepastu dia duduk balik sbb takde sokongan padu dr kawan2 dia. lepastu kitorg smua terpaksa tgk crita bolt. yg pasal anjing bijak kena culik segala. sebab bilik tgk movie tu gelap. jd i tk smpt tgk dia. lagipun i khusyuk tgk crita tu. last last. nah amik kau. bila lmpu dah switch on. satu group dr meja dia tido sbb tak layan crita bolt. tgk? buang masa je i cover line nak tunjuk kat dia yang
' hey i pun suka anime. tp bukan naruto tau. i suka animation. kartun2 mcm tu i suka jugak.'
last last i discovered yg dia tido. mmg harembon benarlah. tp at least i tahu lah yg dia ada affection towards anime. dah lah aku tk suka anime. mmg tak serasi lah kita-.-
7) masa ni masa takin photo session. i and him and smua batch last year tk patut ada dalam gmbr sbb kitorg dah takde koko tahun ni. tapi sebab Mr og kuat kelab i. jadi dia and kawan2 mcm penting jugak lah untuk ada dlm picture koko. lepastu i and kawan2 yg rasa tkde kepentingan untuk ada dalam gmbr koko dtg lambatmasa sesi fotografi ya. nasib lah ada jodoh. masa photographer tu about to click nk tgkp gmbr, kitorg smpai. lepastu photographer tu kena rearrange balik smua members dlm klab i ikut ketinggian. lepastu photgrapher tu suruh i diri dekat line yg sama ngan Mr. mr dah sengih. i dah macam wth.dah la lmbt. malu lagi skrg. lepastu kawan dia 2/3 org mcm tu lah trus ckp whoaaa.. bila photgrapher suruh i diri kat line MR. then cikgu in charge yg tk paham apa2 macam apahal diorg bising2 ni? aku diamm je. TAPI sbb Mr tinggi. i rendah. i kena duduk tepi. mr duduk tgh. mmg smua gmbr dia duduk tgh-.-'
last2 i kena tukar tempat sbb i pendek sgt. i kena duduk atas bench. wush. takde jodoh lah kita.
8) masa tu dia kena tolong junior kitorg buat kerja untuk compettn. i pulak tgh tolong diri sendiri siapkan course work. lepastu junior tu ckp2 ngn dia. tp dia tk boleh buat kerja tu sbb BUSY layan junior lain.lepastu junior tu pun dtg lah kat i mintak tolong. aku yg nak tunjuk skill power gila depan mr,terus tolong. tp i guna gergaji elektrik tu. senget lah jugak.lepastu Mr nmpk i dah buat salah baru dia nk tolong junior tu potongkan sthg.. lawa dan kemas. wah!
buat malu i je tolong budak tu dah lah i buat buruk-.- wush. tp mr senyum je tgk hasil kerja tgn i. senyum tu suka ke ejek? cakap sikit.
10) oh masa dia jadi prefect. dia punya duty mesti dkt depan tgga yg i lalu lepas rehat. suka tak terkata. kalau dulu makan sopan sebab mr ada time recess. tapi smua brubah bila mr ada duty. i makan sikit/ tk makan sbb i tk sabar nak lalu tngga balik kelas lepas rehat. wakakaka. gediknya ya amat,
selalunya. kalau dia tgh orak ngn kawan dia, dia akn stop borak bila i lalu. TOLONG BAGITAHU I MACAM MANA I NAK CAKAP I TAK SUKA DIA KALAU DIA BUAT MACAM TU??!
lepastu siap tgk i hati2 smpai i dah takde kat tgga. (ni pun kawan yg cakap. tkkn la at the same time masa i naik tangga i nak pndg dia jugak kan. jual mahal tu perlu)
ada satu hari. i lalu time dia duty. tp i pndg bawah je. lepastu kawan i ngade2 jerit nama Mr. lepastu muka i merah menyala. lalu i lari eh tak sbnrnya jalan laju sikit. ya amat. mesti gedik kan.
kadang2 bediri blakang cermin. ewah mcm lahh i tk nmpk kaki you. nak nyorokk pulakkkk.
smpai sini je i igt. i tulis secepat mungkin sbb dah agak mesti busy gila time skolah kan. dah tu bai.
why oh why.
1) Mr balik and jalan belakang i. even if i walked extremely SLOW. penat ngeh.
2)Mr always stood belakang i masa i stayed back and buat maths.
3)Mr slalu jalan dekat tempat yg i ada smpai mganggu ke focus an i terhadap bend yg i belajar.
4)The last day i nampak Mr masa dekat staffroom. and i nampak / i actually mmg dengan niat nak tgk Mr for the last time before i tk tahu smpai bila i tkkn jumpa dia dah-.- then ada rama gila orang dekat depan i. but still i nampak Mr pndg i kat celah2 orang tu. so i rasa tu masa yang paling lama i tgk Mr lama lama without rasa bersalah ke apa. asalkan i tak mnyesal. ngeh
5)Mr yang sepatutnya nak balik sebab tk patut ada kat workshop,x jadi balik lepas i stay dlm bilik tu? ok ni mcm i tk caya sgt lah dia tk balik sbb i. mungkin kebetulan.
6)semua kebetulan yg jadi between me and Mr smua i suka. ahhaha. sbb i x caya kalau dia did ON PURPOSE untuk ada lama depan mata i. siapa nak percaya? pembaca setia blog ni pun mungkin tak caya. harhar.
7) I nampak Mr was peeping through the glass window time dia ada PE lesson masa i cuci my stuff dalam workshop. tp i pretend yg i tak nampak, tapi i suka. wakaka
8) Mr pernah buat muka seribu kali bengis dari biasa. ok takde lah bengis. tapi macam i rasa lain macam (like muka dia tak semanis biasa) masa i masuk kat libbry. tanpa punca dan sebab. wush.
tapi few hours sbelum tu i ada borak dgn a boy and i baru prasan Mr ada blakang i.
9) masa tgk show untuk release tension kat hall. Mr kebelakang kan kerusi dia and bila i tgk dia. i dpt tgk dia straight to the point and kinda shocked sbb dia pun tgh tgk i masa tu. wah perasannya.
10) masa dekat hall on speech day, org first yg i nampk masa i on stage is dia. ish ish. angau lah gila.
bila dah tulis2 mcm ni baru i perasan byk benda i lupa pasal dia. and i menyesal tak tulis sejak dulu.
tunggu lah nak private lah blog ni nanti. awak awak ni kalau meluat tak payah lah baca. harhar,
i post byk gila harini sebab takut tak sempat nk tulis bila sch re open. mesti busy. mesti nak tulis pasal hari hari kat skolah. ok bai
2)Mr always stood belakang i masa i stayed back and buat maths.
3)Mr slalu jalan dekat tempat yg i ada smpai mganggu ke focus an i terhadap bend yg i belajar.
4)The last day i nampak Mr masa dekat staffroom. and i nampak / i actually mmg dengan niat nak tgk Mr for the last time before i tk tahu smpai bila i tkkn jumpa dia dah-.- then ada rama gila orang dekat depan i. but still i nampak Mr pndg i kat celah2 orang tu. so i rasa tu masa yang paling lama i tgk Mr lama lama without rasa bersalah ke apa. asalkan i tak mnyesal. ngeh
5)Mr yang sepatutnya nak balik sebab tk patut ada kat workshop,x jadi balik lepas i stay dlm bilik tu? ok ni mcm i tk caya sgt lah dia tk balik sbb i. mungkin kebetulan.
6)semua kebetulan yg jadi between me and Mr smua i suka. ahhaha. sbb i x caya kalau dia did ON PURPOSE untuk ada lama depan mata i. siapa nak percaya? pembaca setia blog ni pun mungkin tak caya. harhar.
7) I nampak Mr was peeping through the glass window time dia ada PE lesson masa i cuci my stuff dalam workshop. tp i pretend yg i tak nampak, tapi i suka. wakaka
8) Mr pernah buat muka seribu kali bengis dari biasa. ok takde lah bengis. tapi macam i rasa lain macam (like muka dia tak semanis biasa) masa i masuk kat libbry. tanpa punca dan sebab. wush.
tapi few hours sbelum tu i ada borak dgn a boy and i baru prasan Mr ada blakang i.
9) masa tgk show untuk release tension kat hall. Mr kebelakang kan kerusi dia and bila i tgk dia. i dpt tgk dia straight to the point and kinda shocked sbb dia pun tgh tgk i masa tu. wah perasannya.
10) masa dekat hall on speech day, org first yg i nampk masa i on stage is dia. ish ish. angau lah gila.
bila dah tulis2 mcm ni baru i perasan byk benda i lupa pasal dia. and i menyesal tak tulis sejak dulu.
tunggu lah nak private lah blog ni nanti. awak awak ni kalau meluat tak payah lah baca. harhar,
i post byk gila harini sebab takut tak sempat nk tulis bila sch re open. mesti busy. mesti nak tulis pasal hari hari kat skolah. ok bai
mr4.
time ni, dah recess. then i and friends, duduk tempat biasa. kebetulan my class n mr punya kelas recess masa yg sama. so i jarang beli makanan. makanan ruji di sekolah semestinya buah buahan. then, i nmpk Mr beli makanan. masa dia nak duduk dia dah prasan i pndg dia. lepastu dia tukar tmpt duduk yg betul2 berdepan ngan i. tolonglah. banyak nya benda yang awak nak buat saya lagi sukaaaa sgt kat awak. kenapa lah awak macam ni wahai mr?
banyak kali dia buat macam tu. jadi tak payah lah tulis cerita yg sama cuma masa dan waktu je lain kan? ohkay.
so masa tu, i dia and kawan2 se kelab.. kena pegi poly. untuk course apa tah somethang and pertandingan... then, i kena tulis nama dulu. mula mula i tulis nama dulu masa nak register. lepastu i dah habis tulis i perasan Mr kat belakang i tgk my name. kot-.-' takkn dia nak tgk MACAM MANA CARA NAK TULIS NAMA PESERTA, UNTUK MASUK PERTANDINGAN NI KAN? ohooo hoi. lepastu kitorg pun start bertanding. dgn skolah lain. then, dia amik meja sebelah group I. i dah la macam lame gila. tak tahu menahu pasal pertandingan tu. so. mmg dah harap kalah. tapi terpaksa masuk sbb i budak baru(ok ni crita tahun lepas lepas) then . . bila dah habis buat pertandingan tu, kitorg kena lah duduk smntara tunggu judges kira markah. lepastu dia duduk sebelah tempat i. i dah segan malu semua ada. i pun suruh kawan i duduk sebelah dia.. selamat lah jiwa dan raga. bukan apa.takut pengsan je. sbb dah jatuh hati wakakaka;D
lepastu Mr tnya lah kawan i.. group I,dapat smpai level brapa. then kawan i cakap 2 ke 3 tah. then dia gelak and said mcm tak pe boleh try lagi next time. pastu kawan i tnya ..group dia sampai level brapa. dia cakap level 8. and i was like whoa? aku level 2 pun aku tak faham dia dah faham smpai level 8?! last2 dia menang. seperti biasa. kalau pertandingn yg dia masuk mmg tak pernah/ susah sekali nak tgk dia balik tgn kosong. kalau tak no 1 mesti no 2 atau no 3. saya ni? saguhati puntak dapek. choi.
then time balik kitorg naik mrt. lepastu i kan BARU. brapa kali nak ulang. then i tak tahu nak naik bas apa bila dah smpai station mrt yg i kena turun tu. so i tnya lah cikgu. cikgu puntk duduk area rumah i. so dia tak tahu bas apa i kena amik. lepas tu dia tnya MR. kenapa kena tnya MR? sebab MR murid kesayang cikgu i.kenapa kena ulang? haha!
lepastu teacher tu tnya ala ala mcm ni lah.
'mr(bukan nama sebenar), bas ___ boleh tak pergi river valley?sebab budak ni (saya,si penulis), tak tahu nak naik bas apa.'
lepastu Mr tak jawab. aku pndg teacher. Mr pandang aku. then Mr cakap
oh boleh boleh naik bas______
kira Mr bagi lah tahu bas apa i kena naik.. then i was like. yay dia lah hero i sbb tahu jalan mana i nak guna bila naik bas..wah gedikk nya saya....
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ok hari ni entah hari apa. kitorg the whole class kena marah dgn cikgu SS kitorg disebabkn 2 org budak. kira sbenarnya cikgu tu nk marah 2 org budak skali termarah kitorg satu kelas. then dia suruh the whole class beraatur kat luear kelas sbb dia nak membebel kat kitorg dekat LUAR KELAS, so that org form otha classes boleh nmpk kitorg kena marah. fine thank you-.-' lepastu i pun diri lah ngn kawan2 i sebaris. mengahadap kelas MR. i nampak Mr tgah study. wah bagusss. jgn lah pndg sini sbb i tgh kena marah. (harap dalam hati)
lepastu i nmpak kawan Mr, pndg kelas kitorg. then dia bagi tahu mr kot? then Mr trus tgk kitorg smua yg kena bebel kat luar kelas. the i was like. JANGAN TGK I! mula ula Mr tgk sekilas. then dia smbung menulis apa tah. then dia pndg balik lama lama. nasib lah dek-.-' lepastu i nmpk dia tesengeh2. malu seribu kali malu. kenapa time kelas i kena marah pun dia kena perasan? kenapa mr kenapa? wush!
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ok ni part i paling suka. masa ni kitorg tgh jalan kat tangga from staffroom. tgga tu ada cermin. idah smpai tingkat bawah (sambil turun tgga i nmpk dia.) then dia tgh borak kawan dia terpandang i lepastu pndg depan then dia pandang i balik. and i was like.. are you frigging serious? u just tilted your head again after u saw me? and i sgt sgt suka. hahaha.
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act banyak lagi kot. tapi biarlah i buat main point je. so that bila I baca balik i tahu cerita sebenar. tulis panjang2 kat sini pun bukann ada makna. semua ni untu i baca balik. bukan untuk org baca and cakap eww this girl too much of day dreaming. -.-' ok thnks.
banyak kali dia buat macam tu. jadi tak payah lah tulis cerita yg sama cuma masa dan waktu je lain kan? ohkay.
so masa tu, i dia and kawan2 se kelab.. kena pegi poly. untuk course apa tah somethang and pertandingan... then, i kena tulis nama dulu. mula mula i tulis nama dulu masa nak register. lepastu i dah habis tulis i perasan Mr kat belakang i tgk my name. kot-.-' takkn dia nak tgk MACAM MANA CARA NAK TULIS NAMA PESERTA, UNTUK MASUK PERTANDINGAN NI KAN? ohooo hoi. lepastu kitorg pun start bertanding. dgn skolah lain. then, dia amik meja sebelah group I. i dah la macam lame gila. tak tahu menahu pasal pertandingan tu. so. mmg dah harap kalah. tapi terpaksa masuk sbb i budak baru(ok ni crita tahun lepas lepas) then . . bila dah habis buat pertandingan tu, kitorg kena lah duduk smntara tunggu judges kira markah. lepastu dia duduk sebelah tempat i. i dah segan malu semua ada. i pun suruh kawan i duduk sebelah dia.. selamat lah jiwa dan raga. bukan apa.takut pengsan je. sbb dah jatuh hati wakakaka;D
lepastu Mr tnya lah kawan i.. group I,dapat smpai level brapa. then kawan i cakap 2 ke 3 tah. then dia gelak and said mcm tak pe boleh try lagi next time. pastu kawan i tnya ..group dia sampai level brapa. dia cakap level 8. and i was like whoa? aku level 2 pun aku tak faham dia dah faham smpai level 8?! last2 dia menang. seperti biasa. kalau pertandingn yg dia masuk mmg tak pernah/ susah sekali nak tgk dia balik tgn kosong. kalau tak no 1 mesti no 2 atau no 3. saya ni? saguhati puntak dapek. choi.
then time balik kitorg naik mrt. lepastu i kan BARU. brapa kali nak ulang. then i tak tahu nak naik bas apa bila dah smpai station mrt yg i kena turun tu. so i tnya lah cikgu. cikgu puntk duduk area rumah i. so dia tak tahu bas apa i kena amik. lepas tu dia tnya MR. kenapa kena tnya MR? sebab MR murid kesayang cikgu i.kenapa kena ulang? haha!
lepastu teacher tu tnya ala ala mcm ni lah.
'mr(bukan nama sebenar), bas ___ boleh tak pergi river valley?sebab budak ni (saya,si penulis), tak tahu nak naik bas apa.'
lepastu Mr tak jawab. aku pndg teacher. Mr pandang aku. then Mr cakap
oh boleh boleh naik bas______
kira Mr bagi lah tahu bas apa i kena naik.. then i was like. yay dia lah hero i sbb tahu jalan mana i nak guna bila naik bas..wah gedikk nya saya....
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ok hari ni entah hari apa. kitorg the whole class kena marah dgn cikgu SS kitorg disebabkn 2 org budak. kira sbenarnya cikgu tu nk marah 2 org budak skali termarah kitorg satu kelas. then dia suruh the whole class beraatur kat luear kelas sbb dia nak membebel kat kitorg dekat LUAR KELAS, so that org form otha classes boleh nmpk kitorg kena marah. fine thank you-.-' lepastu i pun diri lah ngn kawan2 i sebaris. mengahadap kelas MR. i nampak Mr tgah study. wah bagusss. jgn lah pndg sini sbb i tgh kena marah. (harap dalam hati)
lepastu i nmpak kawan Mr, pndg kelas kitorg. then dia bagi tahu mr kot? then Mr trus tgk kitorg smua yg kena bebel kat luar kelas. the i was like. JANGAN TGK I! mula ula Mr tgk sekilas. then dia smbung menulis apa tah. then dia pndg balik lama lama. nasib lah dek-.-' lepastu i nmpk dia tesengeh2. malu seribu kali malu. kenapa time kelas i kena marah pun dia kena perasan? kenapa mr kenapa? wush!
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ok ni part i paling suka. masa ni kitorg tgh jalan kat tangga from staffroom. tgga tu ada cermin. idah smpai tingkat bawah (sambil turun tgga i nmpk dia.) then dia tgh borak kawan dia terpandang i lepastu pndg depan then dia pandang i balik. and i was like.. are you frigging serious? u just tilted your head again after u saw me? and i sgt sgt suka. hahaha.
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act banyak lagi kot. tapi biarlah i buat main point je. so that bila I baca balik i tahu cerita sebenar. tulis panjang2 kat sini pun bukann ada makna. semua ni untu i baca balik. bukan untuk org baca and cakap eww this girl too much of day dreaming. -.-' ok thnks.
mr 3.
hurm, so that day, was my lucky day. i realized tht i had started liking Mr. yikes. sekolah macam biasa.. and bla bla bla. then satu hari.. Mr keluar first dari bilik kelab. then i keluar last time nak g recess. then masa nak bukak pintu i tarik the pintu from inside and someone is tarik-ing from outside. i dah macam wth. aku kena kunci ke dlm bilik ni. then i lepaskan. bila terbukak pintu tu baru i tahu org yg tarik tu Mr... mesti dia kata aku gila ke apa. org nak bukak pintu kena tolak. aku tarik-.-' ahh malu. tapi bila Mr dah bukak pintu benda tak jadi macam biasa. i mean like macam biasa tu macam... patutnya i trus blah kluar smbil tk pndg or dia trus masuk and buat macam biasa, tapiiii.... hahaha. kitorg berdrama kejap untuk bbrpa saat yg i rasa the longest seconds in my lifetime. faham tak? dia tgk i. i tgk dia. DEPAN PINTU, ayo,. cantikk tempat nak pandang2. tp hari tu baru i tahu i ni pendek. sbb masa nak tgk dia kena dongak-.-' ok lepas brape saat baruu.. lah i cakap err sorry then dia ketepi sikit bagi i jalan dulu. wush. baguiihh na. then baru dia masuk and I TAKNAK PANDANG BELAKANG sbb malu ok. dah la i sorg/dia sorang. ok fine thank you.
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lepastu entah bila bila time koko jugak lah. I masuk bilik kelab dgn kawan i sbb dia ada stuff kena buat untuk upcoming competition. i teman je. lepastu tolong lah buat sikit sikit. Mr duduk satu meja lain.I and my friends, duduk meja bertentangn ngn meja Mr. kira i membelakangi Mr lah. ntah tak tahu how to explainn.. lepastu I tunggu turn nak guna hot glue gun. nak gam apa tah. then i tunggu KAWAN mr guna. kawan dia ni pndg i.. then pandang Mr yg duduk kat blakang kitorg smbil khyusyuk habis bekerja. takde masa nak pndg i dah. gila punah hati dan perasaan time tu-.-. ok tipu je. i can cool. poyonyeh. then kawan dia tnya. are you waiting for this? (referring to hot glue gun). then i said YES. then kawan Mr ni cakap.. what if u share the hot glue gun with MR, then i share this hot glue gun with your friends? U can go accompany Mr do his work. then i was like.. Aaaa . .. . then I pandang mr. then mr pndg i dan.. ok i said no. :/ tengok dah ada chan nak bekerjasama dgn Mr taknk.. wush wush.
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then again.. i was asked with the same questn, macam haritu. this time . . Mr was not around. and only me and my friend, and Mr's friends.(2 orang) lepastu dua dua tanya i. 'do u like mr?just say yes lah' then kawan i was like terkejut. and i apa lagi terkejut bersama. lepastu kitorg gelak and tinggalkan diorg berdua tnpa jawapan.. sejak haritu dah takde dah soalan macam tu ditanyakan oleh diorg. kalau i ada chance untuk jawab soalan tu sekali lagi hari ni, i;d definitely say yes. sadly-.-
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then lagi satu i slalu nampak dia dekat libbry. satu hari i duduk meja depan dia. tapi jauh la sikit. and i saw him reading newspaper. i ni mmg tk boleh kalah ah. dlm libbry pun buat bising. i borak2 ngn kawan and gelak2 sikit lah. then masa dah gelak2 tu i terpndg dia turunkan newspaper tu and pndg kat i. malunyaaa oi. gelak dah lah tk cover. bila i pndg terus dia naikkan surat khabar yg dia baca(a.k.a sambung baca newspaper) wah wahh.. good try dear Mr(: haha!
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bla bla bla. i dah tk igt apa apa.sekarang dah 2010. yg crita sbelum2 tu 2009. =.=' then. masa 2010, dah takde cca. sedih kan? tapi... i ada course work. and at the same time, Mr ada kerja yg sama kat workshop i guna . . almost everyday after school. oleh itu, selalu lah jumpa beliau. satu hari, i tgh buat kerja mengasah kayu. (gila tak keperempuanan kerja yg i kena buat depan dia-.-') lepastu i duduk sorang2 dekat meja blakangggg skali. then lepas a few hours berhempas pulas pndg bawah meja smbil mengasahh. i nampak dia and friends datang NAK BUAT KERJA DIA kat workshop yg sama. ok fine. trus bersihkan habuk2 kat skirt dan sebagainya. pastu smbung buat kerja. then i pndg depan.tgk dia and friends diri jauh kat meja depan skali smbil tunggu cikgu. then, i was like ok fine. kenapa kena duduk jauh sgt. all i wana be is with u. okay sedihnya. then dia nampak i pndg dia. dia terus jalan ke belakang and tinggalkn kawan2 dia. and i was like.. jgn lah dia dtg and nk tegur aku then marah aku sbb aku pndg dia tadi-.-' lepastu rupa2nya dia dtg and duduk DEPAN MEJA I. gila tak keruan ok. i rasa macam dia dengar je apa yg i cakap dalam hati. wakakakaka! dia duduk then dia pndg belakang n senyum2. i pun bajetlah baik snyum balik and smbung kerja.. lepastu kawan dia yg duduk kat depan tu dah macam weird. wth yg MR buat kat meja i? apa ni ? apa??! leastu diorg dah 'ehem ehem' lalu Mr pun pergi balik ke depan ngn kawan2 dia. -________- redha nya i.
bla bla bla. time nak balikk.. i kena beratur. dia tak payah bratur sbb dia murid kesayangn teacher i.bwek. dia kena cakap apa tah. soo masa i bratur i duduk tepi almari.. then tkde org kat sbelah. then dia dtg and bratur sebelah i. and i was like. . . . OKAY. PLEASE. my heart stop beating. ngeh ngeh. lepastu class dismissed. lalu baik lah i... sorg2.
lepastu i jumpa dia kat bus stop. kawan i cakap dia slalu ambik bus stop jauh.tapi since i dah jumpa dia kat bus stop tu haritu.. almost everyday i nmpk dia ada kat bus stop tu(selama i kena buat course work je lah. kalau hari2 biasa takde sebab jadual lainn). its either i yg lmbt smpai atau dia lmbt sampai. bahagianyaa ii.. walaupun malu lah sikit. tapi well, siapa tak suka kalau dapat tunggu bas smbil cuci mata? siapa x suka? cakap sikit!siapa tk suka ha?!
until one day, dia balik dulu. i lmbt sebab kena bersihkan workshop.. huuuuuuuuu:/ lepastu i jalan laju2 harap2 nampak bayang pun jadi lah. last2 i nmpk dia jalan tapi different lane. faham tk? susah nk terangkan. smpai kat traffic light i trus pergi ke bus stop yg i slalu pegi. and i saw Mr, tunggu for jalan satu lagi untuk cross the road. then i was like.. er fine oh fine.. dia ambik bus stop lain:( lepastu i jalan terus. then i pusing blakang i nmpk dia still kat traffic light tu. then dia pndg i balik then ambik bus stop sama ngn i. wah wah.. suka i. tapi yg i tk suka sbb bas dia slalu dtg awal. bas i slalu dtg lmbt. kenapa?!
so, ada satu hari tu, dia and kawan dia lg sorg tgh borak ngn teacher i kat meja teacher. i yg macam busy2 dgn kerja i buat2 tak prasan. last2 i jumpa teacher yg tgh borak ngn diorg tu and tnya somethg sbb nak copy picture barang kerja i dalam laptop dia. and laptop tu DEPAN MR. thank you ya. kebetulan2 macam ni mmg i suka:D hha! lepastu i duduk meja yg sama. i pndg dia dia pandang i. i nak senyum tp macam takut ah dia igt i nk flirting ke apa. so mata i focus kat screen laptop. tapi dia. focus kat i. ok sbb kita tak share laptop skrg-.-' laptop tu i tgh guna so dia pndg either i atau white board kat blakang. tu i tak sure. sbb mmg kit dah duduk berdepan. dah macam 'laptop light dinner dah' i punya mind dah mcm tak tentu arah. guna lappy pun mcm terkial2.last2 teacher tu buat kan. i diri je kat situ. bila i try pndg dia.. i yg ter malu balik sbb dia mmg betul pndg i. last2 i kalah okay okay. I bla dr tempat tu. biarkan teacher tu transfer sendiri gmbr2 tu. malu GILA.
one thing that i love abt this teacher. dia suka puji i. lalu saya tak ksah kalau dia puji depan org lain. tapi bila dia puji I depan Mr, i was like YAY! hahahaha. as always, Mr kan murid kesayang teacher i. so dia slalu lah jumpa teacher. so masa tu i kena buat sketching. tp dia dah depan mata. as always my mind was everywhere. last2 i sketch benda lari tema! serious dia dh tgk i sketching. i nak la tunjuk terror. i patut nya kena sketch gmbar meja. tp i sketch gmbar sofa. nasib baik lah teacher i tegur i sketch salah masa Mr dah takde kat situ. kalau tak jatuh air muka air hidung semua. ngeh!
lepastu hari lain pulak, we both duduk different room. tp sebelah2 je bilik tu. i duduk menghala ke cermin yg menyambungkan bilik tu. macam tingkap lah. tapi tingkap tk boleh bukak. cuma cermin je. kira kita boleh tgk what happen on the other room. lepastu i pun buat lah kerja2.. punya focus. skali itgk ada org selak langsir dr bilik yg Mr duduk. then i nampak DIA! hahaah:D comel kan(: lepastu i buat2 tk nmpk and he did tht once again. lepastu i dah tk tgk dah. hurm.
dia ada buat kerja kerja menghedap ni beberapa kali i rasa. sbb ada skali tu. i masuk staffroom. then dia duduk blakang pintu. sebab dia tgh berborak dgn teacher i tu. tp at that time, I dah masuk staffroom, (eh tak i duduk depan pintu staffroom) sbb i boleh nmpk dah teacher tu then cakap je lah kan.. lepastu i tk prasan dia ada kat blakang pintu. then. bila i dah selesai convo dengan teacher me and friend, duduk kat luar stafroom tu sementara tunggu class design start. .
tgh i borak2 sorg2. i nmpk org bukak pintu stafroom tu sikit. then keluar kepala and macam finding for someone. bila i perhati baru prasan tu rupanya Mr. then, bila mr nampak i baru dia tersengih then tutup pintu balik. sekarang tolong bagi tahu i. yang dia bukak pintu sebab nak tgk i? ok gila perasan. tp ye lah i think so lah kot. erk.
so now, u tell me how am i suppose to say I DONT LOVE HIM bila dia dah buat semua benda macam ni? cakap sikit? i sendiri confuse. tapi.. tsskk
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lepastu entah bila bila time koko jugak lah. I masuk bilik kelab dgn kawan i sbb dia ada stuff kena buat untuk upcoming competition. i teman je. lepastu tolong lah buat sikit sikit. Mr duduk satu meja lain.I and my friends, duduk meja bertentangn ngn meja Mr. kira i membelakangi Mr lah. ntah tak tahu how to explainn.. lepastu I tunggu turn nak guna hot glue gun. nak gam apa tah. then i tunggu KAWAN mr guna. kawan dia ni pndg i.. then pandang Mr yg duduk kat blakang kitorg smbil khyusyuk habis bekerja. takde masa nak pndg i dah. gila punah hati dan perasaan time tu-.-. ok tipu je. i can cool. poyonyeh. then kawan dia tnya. are you waiting for this? (referring to hot glue gun). then i said YES. then kawan Mr ni cakap.. what if u share the hot glue gun with MR, then i share this hot glue gun with your friends? U can go accompany Mr do his work. then i was like.. Aaaa . .. . then I pandang mr. then mr pndg i dan.. ok i said no. :/ tengok dah ada chan nak bekerjasama dgn Mr taknk.. wush wush.
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then again.. i was asked with the same questn, macam haritu. this time . . Mr was not around. and only me and my friend, and Mr's friends.(2 orang) lepastu dua dua tanya i. 'do u like mr?just say yes lah' then kawan i was like terkejut. and i apa lagi terkejut bersama. lepastu kitorg gelak and tinggalkan diorg berdua tnpa jawapan.. sejak haritu dah takde dah soalan macam tu ditanyakan oleh diorg. kalau i ada chance untuk jawab soalan tu sekali lagi hari ni, i;d definitely say yes. sadly-.-
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then lagi satu i slalu nampak dia dekat libbry. satu hari i duduk meja depan dia. tapi jauh la sikit. and i saw him reading newspaper. i ni mmg tk boleh kalah ah. dlm libbry pun buat bising. i borak2 ngn kawan and gelak2 sikit lah. then masa dah gelak2 tu i terpndg dia turunkan newspaper tu and pndg kat i. malunyaaa oi. gelak dah lah tk cover. bila i pndg terus dia naikkan surat khabar yg dia baca(a.k.a sambung baca newspaper) wah wahh.. good try dear Mr(: haha!
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bla bla bla. i dah tk igt apa apa.sekarang dah 2010. yg crita sbelum2 tu 2009. =.=' then. masa 2010, dah takde cca. sedih kan? tapi... i ada course work. and at the same time, Mr ada kerja yg sama kat workshop i guna . . almost everyday after school. oleh itu, selalu lah jumpa beliau. satu hari, i tgh buat kerja mengasah kayu. (gila tak keperempuanan kerja yg i kena buat depan dia-.-') lepastu i duduk sorang2 dekat meja blakangggg skali. then lepas a few hours berhempas pulas pndg bawah meja smbil mengasahh. i nampak dia and friends datang NAK BUAT KERJA DIA kat workshop yg sama. ok fine. trus bersihkan habuk2 kat skirt dan sebagainya. pastu smbung buat kerja. then i pndg depan.tgk dia and friends diri jauh kat meja depan skali smbil tunggu cikgu. then, i was like ok fine. kenapa kena duduk jauh sgt. all i wana be is with u. okay sedihnya. then dia nampak i pndg dia. dia terus jalan ke belakang and tinggalkn kawan2 dia. and i was like.. jgn lah dia dtg and nk tegur aku then marah aku sbb aku pndg dia tadi-.-' lepastu rupa2nya dia dtg and duduk DEPAN MEJA I. gila tak keruan ok. i rasa macam dia dengar je apa yg i cakap dalam hati. wakakakaka! dia duduk then dia pndg belakang n senyum2. i pun bajetlah baik snyum balik and smbung kerja.. lepastu kawan dia yg duduk kat depan tu dah macam weird. wth yg MR buat kat meja i? apa ni ? apa??! leastu diorg dah 'ehem ehem' lalu Mr pun pergi balik ke depan ngn kawan2 dia. -________- redha nya i.
bla bla bla. time nak balikk.. i kena beratur. dia tak payah bratur sbb dia murid kesayangn teacher i.bwek. dia kena cakap apa tah. soo masa i bratur i duduk tepi almari.. then tkde org kat sbelah. then dia dtg and bratur sebelah i. and i was like. . . . OKAY. PLEASE. my heart stop beating. ngeh ngeh. lepastu class dismissed. lalu baik lah i... sorg2.
lepastu i jumpa dia kat bus stop. kawan i cakap dia slalu ambik bus stop jauh.tapi since i dah jumpa dia kat bus stop tu haritu.. almost everyday i nmpk dia ada kat bus stop tu(selama i kena buat course work je lah. kalau hari2 biasa takde sebab jadual lainn). its either i yg lmbt smpai atau dia lmbt sampai. bahagianyaa ii.. walaupun malu lah sikit. tapi well, siapa tak suka kalau dapat tunggu bas smbil cuci mata? siapa x suka? cakap sikit!siapa tk suka ha?!
until one day, dia balik dulu. i lmbt sebab kena bersihkan workshop.. huuuuuuuuu:/ lepastu i jalan laju2 harap2 nampak bayang pun jadi lah. last2 i nmpk dia jalan tapi different lane. faham tk? susah nk terangkan. smpai kat traffic light i trus pergi ke bus stop yg i slalu pegi. and i saw Mr, tunggu for jalan satu lagi untuk cross the road. then i was like.. er fine oh fine.. dia ambik bus stop lain:( lepastu i jalan terus. then i pusing blakang i nmpk dia still kat traffic light tu. then dia pndg i balik then ambik bus stop sama ngn i. wah wah.. suka i. tapi yg i tk suka sbb bas dia slalu dtg awal. bas i slalu dtg lmbt. kenapa?!
so, ada satu hari tu, dia and kawan dia lg sorg tgh borak ngn teacher i kat meja teacher. i yg macam busy2 dgn kerja i buat2 tak prasan. last2 i jumpa teacher yg tgh borak ngn diorg tu and tnya somethg sbb nak copy picture barang kerja i dalam laptop dia. and laptop tu DEPAN MR. thank you ya. kebetulan2 macam ni mmg i suka:D hha! lepastu i duduk meja yg sama. i pndg dia dia pandang i. i nak senyum tp macam takut ah dia igt i nk flirting ke apa. so mata i focus kat screen laptop. tapi dia. focus kat i. ok sbb kita tak share laptop skrg-.-' laptop tu i tgh guna so dia pndg either i atau white board kat blakang. tu i tak sure. sbb mmg kit dah duduk berdepan. dah macam 'laptop light dinner dah' i punya mind dah mcm tak tentu arah. guna lappy pun mcm terkial2.last2 teacher tu buat kan. i diri je kat situ. bila i try pndg dia.. i yg ter malu balik sbb dia mmg betul pndg i. last2 i kalah okay okay. I bla dr tempat tu. biarkan teacher tu transfer sendiri gmbr2 tu. malu GILA.
one thing that i love abt this teacher. dia suka puji i. lalu saya tak ksah kalau dia puji depan org lain. tapi bila dia puji I depan Mr, i was like YAY! hahahaha. as always, Mr kan murid kesayang teacher i. so dia slalu lah jumpa teacher. so masa tu i kena buat sketching. tp dia dah depan mata. as always my mind was everywhere. last2 i sketch benda lari tema! serious dia dh tgk i sketching. i nak la tunjuk terror. i patut nya kena sketch gmbar meja. tp i sketch gmbar sofa. nasib baik lah teacher i tegur i sketch salah masa Mr dah takde kat situ. kalau tak jatuh air muka air hidung semua. ngeh!
lepastu hari lain pulak, we both duduk different room. tp sebelah2 je bilik tu. i duduk menghala ke cermin yg menyambungkan bilik tu. macam tingkap lah. tapi tingkap tk boleh bukak. cuma cermin je. kira kita boleh tgk what happen on the other room. lepastu i pun buat lah kerja2.. punya focus. skali itgk ada org selak langsir dr bilik yg Mr duduk. then i nampak DIA! hahaah:D comel kan(: lepastu i buat2 tk nmpk and he did tht once again. lepastu i dah tk tgk dah. hurm.
dia ada buat kerja kerja menghedap ni beberapa kali i rasa. sbb ada skali tu. i masuk staffroom. then dia duduk blakang pintu. sebab dia tgh berborak dgn teacher i tu. tp at that time, I dah masuk staffroom, (eh tak i duduk depan pintu staffroom) sbb i boleh nmpk dah teacher tu then cakap je lah kan.. lepastu i tk prasan dia ada kat blakang pintu. then. bila i dah selesai convo dengan teacher me and friend, duduk kat luar stafroom tu sementara tunggu class design start. .
tgh i borak2 sorg2. i nmpk org bukak pintu stafroom tu sikit. then keluar kepala and macam finding for someone. bila i perhati baru prasan tu rupanya Mr. then, bila mr nampak i baru dia tersengih then tutup pintu balik. sekarang tolong bagi tahu i. yang dia bukak pintu sebab nak tgk i? ok gila perasan. tp ye lah i think so lah kot. erk.
so now, u tell me how am i suppose to say I DONT LOVE HIM bila dia dah buat semua benda macam ni? cakap sikit? i sendiri confuse. tapi.. tsskk
school random.
ok this is effin hot news! 5N is going to be squeezydemaizy coz it will be the one and only class for 2011. i think its true cuz only a few numbers of pupils opted to continue SURVIVE in sec 5.i suppose that its good for us and ME,as we can focus more on studies, aside from competing for be the best. and there will be higher chances that im not goin to antara 3 plajar tebaek ececeh.. dah.ngeh ngehhh. second reason is, mesti klas tu mcm jadi tumpuan je. sbb satu2 nya sec 5 yg ada dalam skolah-.-' ok tu je. yg TAK BEST. banyak. tapi tk terfikir lagi kot. sekolah pun belum mula. mggu dpn nak skola esok baru i nak beli baju ke buku ke. hadoi(:
Mr 2.
time ni dah dekat teachers day. so kotrg kena tulis a small note on the 'post it' paper. well somethg like that. ala macam memo pad tu..then, masa i tgh duduk ngn kawan2 i, sebelum pergi dia cakap ngn kawan i. katt blakang. hari ni kena buat kad untuk cikgu cikgu-.-' smpai hati tk cakap ngn saya. tapi in reality. dia ckp ngn kawan i tp pandang i. jadi i rasakan dia sbenarnya ckp ngn i. ok perasan lah kau gila. then HIS friend, distribute lah 'post it' yang colourful tu satu sorg. bila kat semua org dia bagi secara random. dah smpai kat i dia tnya i nak colour apa. wush! i boleh pilih kaler! i cakap green. dia bagi yellow. gila tak faham bahasa nyaa kawan Mr ni. then i cakap kat dia. hey i want green not yellow. then dia pndg Mr, yang duduk kat depan/ belakang(not sure) then kwn dia ni pndg i balik and said. nevermind, just take yellow ok? then dia blah. lepastu dah smpai bilik kelab i baru prasan rupanya Mr pun pakai kad warna yellow. ish sukanya. kita sama lah:p
ngehh. lepastu i pun tulis lah wishes for my teachers.. then kena pulangkan balik kad tu kat kawan Mr nih.. then i tulis buruk then.. i buang.. kad tu. mintak lagi kat kawan Mr.. . dia kasi yellow again. ok fine. lepastu mcm tak puas hati. i simpan kad yellow dalam beg. i amik kad green dekat meja dia. tp dia tk prasan lah-.-' lepastu YAY dah siap:") then i pun bagi kat kawan mr. . . hush. lepastu gila tak boleh cover... kawan mr ni terus panggil nama Mr. right after i pulangkan kad yg i dah tulis wishes tu.. lepastu bila i pusing blakang rupanya dia bagi Mr baca kad yg i tulis-.-'a.k.a TENGOK TULISAN I YG BURUK. TIMA KASIH YA. lepastu Mr pun senyum lepastu saya pun rasa kecewa. tak dapat pun baca kad Mr. hohoho.
thenn.. masa tu free time. Mr duduk dekat je ngn tmpt i diri. tiba2 2 kawan Mr panggil i. dia tanya KUAT KUAT. okay yang i ni suka Mr tak. tolonglah percaya saya macam terkejut beruk habis tergolek ah dengar soalan macam tu. kalau dah berkenalan ngan mr ke apa.. boleh la jawab. ni tahu nama and macam2 tu je.. lepastu dia pulak duduk sebelah mcm dekat gila. wth. kan? i just senyummm je and buat reaksi terkejut lah kan. then blah. kalau cakap yes macam wth? tak kenal lagi nk ngaku suka DEPAN DIA Pulak tu. tapi kalau cakap no.. i sendiri dah rasa lain time tu. kalauu ada org tahu mcm mana saya rasa time tu :/
bai.
ngehh. lepastu i pun tulis lah wishes for my teachers.. then kena pulangkan balik kad tu kat kawan Mr nih.. then i tulis buruk then.. i buang.. kad tu. mintak lagi kat kawan Mr.. . dia kasi yellow again. ok fine. lepastu mcm tak puas hati. i simpan kad yellow dalam beg. i amik kad green dekat meja dia. tp dia tk prasan lah-.-' lepastu YAY dah siap:") then i pun bagi kat kawan mr. . . hush. lepastu gila tak boleh cover... kawan mr ni terus panggil nama Mr. right after i pulangkan kad yg i dah tulis wishes tu.. lepastu bila i pusing blakang rupanya dia bagi Mr baca kad yg i tulis-.-'a.k.a TENGOK TULISAN I YG BURUK. TIMA KASIH YA. lepastu Mr pun senyum lepastu saya pun rasa kecewa. tak dapat pun baca kad Mr. hohoho.
thenn.. masa tu free time. Mr duduk dekat je ngn tmpt i diri. tiba2 2 kawan Mr panggil i. dia tanya KUAT KUAT. okay yang i ni suka Mr tak. tolonglah percaya saya macam terkejut beruk habis tergolek ah dengar soalan macam tu. kalau dah berkenalan ngan mr ke apa.. boleh la jawab. ni tahu nama and macam2 tu je.. lepastu dia pulak duduk sebelah mcm dekat gila. wth. kan? i just senyummm je and buat reaksi terkejut lah kan. then blah. kalau cakap yes macam wth? tak kenal lagi nk ngaku suka DEPAN DIA Pulak tu. tapi kalau cakap no.. i sendiri dah rasa lain time tu. kalauu ada org tahu mcm mana saya rasa time tu :/
bai.
hurm hi hello. lets continue.
okay time ni dah sampai sekolah. dari naik bas tu. then i tk igt apa jadi. WAH. haha,. then maybe the next day kot. ada telematch at school. soo i ni terpilih untuk jadi one of the teammates dalam group Mr's punya kawan2. and i was the only girl. and i budak baru. please note that:/ gila sengsara i. dah la takda girl. geng terus takde. jadi i sempoi2 layan diorg. and i lah jadi tukang tgkap gmbar.. Mr punya group lain. i igt dia group 2. i tak igt i group nombor berapa. tengok? punyalah suka smpai group mr nak igt je. ngeh. then.. bila dah lain group kita kena lah menjadi pencabar/ opponent to his group. . . bla bla bla. main game semua.. tiba masa game kena ikat balloon kat kaki, then lari so that opponent kita TAK BOLEH pijak ballon tu. kalau kena pijak. kita kalah. so, time tu. group i kena lawan group mr. dalam hati dah macam YAY aku kan budak baru. siapa je interested nak mengejar balloon i. so i started with kejar group MR, tapi org lain lah. sbb ntah lah time tu tk interested sgt lahhh nak kejar dia. kang dia igt i mmg sengaja ke hape. pastu i dah penat i diri satu sudut. then i lari RANDOMLY. just takut kena pijak. at last.. i nmpk dia blakang i. wah wah,. dia dah sengih tgk i then dia terus keja i. tengok comel tak kitorg? Ok dah geli kat situ. tak smpai brapa minit dia dah pijak balloon i. sebab letih, lepas balloon i kena pijak i terus lari coz i cant wait any longer. i nak minum air, so i lari and biarkan mr and semua continue main. bila i lari dari tmpt permainan ke satu blok yang agak jauh. i sempat pusing belakang. tgk lah betapa adanya naluri 'eh kau lah idaman ku kat Mr'. sempat nk tgk blakang=.=. lalu i nmpk dia pndg dulu baru continue main. ngehngeh.
lepastu game2 seterusnya i tgk je Mr and yg lain2 main. . . smpai masa dah tamat.. time photo taking! :D i tak duduk dengan 2 kawan i yg girl2 tu.. sebab dia group lain. actually me and Mr kan dah group lain so kitorg pun duduk jauh2. dia duduk bawah(macam kat tangga).. and i duduk atas dengan classmate i... (lelaki) sebelah kanan ada org. sebelah kiri kosong. ULANG eh? kosong. then i nampak dia pusing blakang and tgk atas. lepastu sengih lagi. lepastu dia naik duduk SEBELAH I. ok meh ulang banyak kali. SEBELAH I OK MR DUDUK SEBELAH I. time ni dah rasa curiga bebenar. dia tinggalkan bestfren dia kat bawah dan duduk sebelah i? ok tu sungguh mencurigakan. dalam hati tkde rasa suka pun cuma berdebar. ok geli byk dah....
lepastu dia dh duduk sbelah i dah cuak lalu mendekat kan diri i dengan classmate i dan menjarakkan tmpt i ngan dia. . then teacher yg nak tgk gmbr said. SQUEEZE IN! dia apa lagi terus menepek kat sebelah i. ok tolonglah bawak aku lari skrg. cuak okay. ok tu je.
rasa tak bernafas untuk sesaat. ngehhhhhhhhhh!
pastu.. umm tak igt dah apa jadi.. tp rasanya esok tu cuti sebulan kot. mid year holiday. lalu takde chan nak jumpa dan.. ok sepanjang holiday nak igt kat dia. bagi tahu sikit kenapa? ok tu je.
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okay time ni dah sampai sekolah. dari naik bas tu. then i tk igt apa jadi. WAH. haha,. then maybe the next day kot. ada telematch at school. soo i ni terpilih untuk jadi one of the teammates dalam group Mr's punya kawan2. and i was the only girl. and i budak baru. please note that:/ gila sengsara i. dah la takda girl. geng terus takde. jadi i sempoi2 layan diorg. and i lah jadi tukang tgkap gmbar.. Mr punya group lain. i igt dia group 2. i tak igt i group nombor berapa. tengok? punyalah suka smpai group mr nak igt je. ngeh. then.. bila dah lain group kita kena lah menjadi pencabar/ opponent to his group. . . bla bla bla. main game semua.. tiba masa game kena ikat balloon kat kaki, then lari so that opponent kita TAK BOLEH pijak ballon tu. kalau kena pijak. kita kalah. so, time tu. group i kena lawan group mr. dalam hati dah macam YAY aku kan budak baru. siapa je interested nak mengejar balloon i. so i started with kejar group MR, tapi org lain lah. sbb ntah lah time tu tk interested sgt lahhh nak kejar dia. kang dia igt i mmg sengaja ke hape. pastu i dah penat i diri satu sudut. then i lari RANDOMLY. just takut kena pijak. at last.. i nmpk dia blakang i. wah wah,. dia dah sengih tgk i then dia terus keja i. tengok comel tak kitorg? Ok dah geli kat situ. tak smpai brapa minit dia dah pijak balloon i. sebab letih, lepas balloon i kena pijak i terus lari coz i cant wait any longer. i nak minum air, so i lari and biarkan mr and semua continue main. bila i lari dari tmpt permainan ke satu blok yang agak jauh. i sempat pusing belakang. tgk lah betapa adanya naluri 'eh kau lah idaman ku kat Mr'. sempat nk tgk blakang=.=. lalu i nmpk dia pndg dulu baru continue main. ngehngeh.
lepastu game2 seterusnya i tgk je Mr and yg lain2 main. . . smpai masa dah tamat.. time photo taking! :D i tak duduk dengan 2 kawan i yg girl2 tu.. sebab dia group lain. actually me and Mr kan dah group lain so kitorg pun duduk jauh2. dia duduk bawah(macam kat tangga).. and i duduk atas dengan classmate i... (lelaki) sebelah kanan ada org. sebelah kiri kosong. ULANG eh? kosong. then i nampak dia pusing blakang and tgk atas. lepastu sengih lagi. lepastu dia naik duduk SEBELAH I. ok meh ulang banyak kali. SEBELAH I OK MR DUDUK SEBELAH I. time ni dah rasa curiga bebenar. dia tinggalkan bestfren dia kat bawah dan duduk sebelah i? ok tu sungguh mencurigakan. dalam hati tkde rasa suka pun cuma berdebar. ok geli byk dah....
lepastu dia dh duduk sbelah i dah cuak lalu mendekat kan diri i dengan classmate i dan menjarakkan tmpt i ngan dia. . then teacher yg nak tgk gmbr said. SQUEEZE IN! dia apa lagi terus menepek kat sebelah i. ok tolonglah bawak aku lari skrg. cuak okay. ok tu je.
rasa tak bernafas untuk sesaat. ngehhhhhhhhhh!
pastu.. umm tak igt dah apa jadi.. tp rasanya esok tu cuti sebulan kot. mid year holiday. lalu takde chan nak jumpa dan.. ok sepanjang holiday nak igt kat dia. bagi tahu sikit kenapa? ok tu je.
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intro:mr.
note: i tulis bukan untuk share betapa bestnya memories yg i ada ngn org yg membaca. tapi untuk saya igt balik sndiri smua yg jadi sbelum ni. i have no one to talk to. i mean pasal benda ni. kalau ada pun i just rasa macam tak smpai hati nak crita. sebab ending cerita ni bukan se best yang i harapkan. jauh sangat dari apa yg jadi. kadang2 rasa mcm kenapa dia kena buat i rasa macam ni bila last2 i tak dapat apa apa. so kalau ada yg nak baca, jgn haraplah crita habis happy ending mcm crita dongeng. lol
hari pertama i terperasan dia.masa i pergi koko. i masuk kelab sama dgn dia. i was like. eeer... selekehnya?! and i tot dia mcm budak yg ngeh malasnya belajar. and termasuk kawan2 dia. since i ni gila lah nerdy. macam tk byk ckp n senyap je bila masuk kelab tu. sepatah tanya sepatah jawab. tapi i always nampak dia kena panggil ngn teacher yg in charge kelab kitorg. hurm. curious aite. so i talked randomly with some NEW people i met there. mostly upper sec yang akn graduate tahun tu jugak. masa tu i form 3. okay. i takda kawan karib dan takde sapa nak bagitahu siapa DIA. tapi i puntak berminat nak tahu.
then one day, kelab kitorg kena buat kerja kebajikan. all the club members kena bagi derma minyak/milo mcm tu lah.. dekat skolah n derma kat rumah org tua. macam tu lah. tapi sbb masa baru sampai sana kan. i punya english macam harem betulla. lalu bila cikgu brief pasal benda tu. dgn english yg berhabuk lajunya.mmmg sah sah i tak faham. so i nekad, after sch i jumpa cikgu tu.
then masa jumpa i diri depan pintu bilik kelab.. i asked her about the derma thingy. nak bawak apa.nak hantar kat sapa.. bla bla. then the teacher was like EH AKU BUSY GILA. MEH AKU SURUH org lain terangkan. then dia pnggilah budak tu.. budak tu dia lah. dalam crita ni kita panggil dia Mr. ok? :) so Mr pun terangkan.. and i tgk muka dia. i senyum pastu i pndg tmpt lain. wthell is he talking about man?! aku faham tapi tak brapa faham-.-' so all i did just angguk n angguk tanda yg i faham. after a few min, i pndg dia n i pndg teacher. and i tnye teacher tu the same qn AGAIN. thenteacher tu thought tht Mr. ni, tak terngkan kat i betul2. then dia kena marah secara lawak2 then dia pndg i balik. senyum. and try terangkan perlahan2 dgn bernas. lepas dia cakap, i ulang apa yg dia cakap sbg tanda i faham. lalu i ckp thnks dan bla.
lepastu baru lah i tahu eh dia ni ketua kelab ni lah?! eh? eh?! haha:D
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lepastu hari2 berlalu.setiap hari koko mesti i perasan dia mcm pndg2. saya sbg budak baru rasa terancam dan tak selamat. kahkah. bila pndg balik baru i tahu org yg pandang tu Mr. . ah sadisnya. okay lepastu kitorg pegi beach untuk activity dgn club members. bila i naik bas, i duduk sorg. sebab kawan i duduk ngn kawan dia-.-' oh gila tak setia. jadi teman i cuma beg kat sebelah. lepastu i tgk dia org akhir naik. yelah KETUA KAN. kena kira brapa org semua-.-
lepastu dia duduk belakang i. SORANG.
dah smpai kat sana kitorg main basikal bla bla bla. lepastu i dgn dua org kawan, main basikal sampai JAUH GILA dr tempat yg sepatutnya all the members patut berjumpa. then tetiba hujan lebat.GILA. i kayuh basikal laju2 ngn kawan2 i. smpai kat tempat pemulangan basikal. baru nak keluarkan payung even i and friends dah kuyup. hoho. lepastu pelan2 kitorg jalan dekat tempat yg patut semua members kena jumpa. i dgn payung. kawan2 ngn payung. kawan 2 org je pun-.-'
lepastu smua members dah duduk bawah khemah. ntah macam mana i ternampak dia. and dlm kita tiga org, (i,n 2org kawan i) . . dia pndg i lama lama ngn bawak payungnya ngn basah nya. ohmy rasa terancam buat kali kedua. harhar. even masa i tengok dia dia tak pndg tmpt lain langsung.then bila kawan dia kot tegur dia baru dia borak ngn kawan dia. so tu lah crita nya. memori daun pisang. igt tak? macam lagu dangdut. harhar. lepastu dalam bas time nak balik dia duduk belakang i lagi. tapi sekarang i dah tk terancam. rasa macam lain. kalau lah ada org faham macam mana rasa lain tu kan:/
so sampai sini sahaja. esok esok atau kejap lagi bila ada masa sambung cerita. insyaallah apa yg i igt i tulis. bye.
hari pertama i terperasan dia.masa i pergi koko. i masuk kelab sama dgn dia. i was like. eeer... selekehnya?! and i tot dia mcm budak yg ngeh malasnya belajar. and termasuk kawan2 dia. since i ni gila lah nerdy. macam tk byk ckp n senyap je bila masuk kelab tu. sepatah tanya sepatah jawab. tapi i always nampak dia kena panggil ngn teacher yg in charge kelab kitorg. hurm. curious aite. so i talked randomly with some NEW people i met there. mostly upper sec yang akn graduate tahun tu jugak. masa tu i form 3. okay. i takda kawan karib dan takde sapa nak bagitahu siapa DIA. tapi i puntak berminat nak tahu.
then one day, kelab kitorg kena buat kerja kebajikan. all the club members kena bagi derma minyak/milo mcm tu lah.. dekat skolah n derma kat rumah org tua. macam tu lah. tapi sbb masa baru sampai sana kan. i punya english macam harem betulla. lalu bila cikgu brief pasal benda tu. dgn english yg berhabuk lajunya.mmmg sah sah i tak faham. so i nekad, after sch i jumpa cikgu tu.
then masa jumpa i diri depan pintu bilik kelab.. i asked her about the derma thingy. nak bawak apa.nak hantar kat sapa.. bla bla. then the teacher was like EH AKU BUSY GILA. MEH AKU SURUH org lain terangkan. then dia pnggilah budak tu.. budak tu dia lah. dalam crita ni kita panggil dia Mr. ok? :) so Mr pun terangkan.. and i tgk muka dia. i senyum pastu i pndg tmpt lain. wthell is he talking about man?! aku faham tapi tak brapa faham-.-' so all i did just angguk n angguk tanda yg i faham. after a few min, i pndg dia n i pndg teacher. and i tnye teacher tu the same qn AGAIN. thenteacher tu thought tht Mr. ni, tak terngkan kat i betul2. then dia kena marah secara lawak2 then dia pndg i balik. senyum. and try terangkan perlahan2 dgn bernas. lepas dia cakap, i ulang apa yg dia cakap sbg tanda i faham. lalu i ckp thnks dan bla.
lepastu baru lah i tahu eh dia ni ketua kelab ni lah?! eh? eh?! haha:D
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lepastu hari2 berlalu.setiap hari koko mesti i perasan dia mcm pndg2. saya sbg budak baru rasa terancam dan tak selamat. kahkah. bila pndg balik baru i tahu org yg pandang tu Mr. . ah sadisnya. okay lepastu kitorg pegi beach untuk activity dgn club members. bila i naik bas, i duduk sorg. sebab kawan i duduk ngn kawan dia-.-' oh gila tak setia. jadi teman i cuma beg kat sebelah. lepastu i tgk dia org akhir naik. yelah KETUA KAN. kena kira brapa org semua-.-
lepastu dia duduk belakang i. SORANG.
dah smpai kat sana kitorg main basikal bla bla bla. lepastu i dgn dua org kawan, main basikal sampai JAUH GILA dr tempat yg sepatutnya all the members patut berjumpa. then tetiba hujan lebat.GILA. i kayuh basikal laju2 ngn kawan2 i. smpai kat tempat pemulangan basikal. baru nak keluarkan payung even i and friends dah kuyup. hoho. lepastu pelan2 kitorg jalan dekat tempat yg patut semua members kena jumpa. i dgn payung. kawan2 ngn payung. kawan 2 org je pun-.-'
lepastu smua members dah duduk bawah khemah. ntah macam mana i ternampak dia. and dlm kita tiga org, (i,n 2org kawan i) . . dia pndg i lama lama ngn bawak payungnya ngn basah nya. ohmy rasa terancam buat kali kedua. harhar. even masa i tengok dia dia tak pndg tmpt lain langsung.then bila kawan dia kot tegur dia baru dia borak ngn kawan dia. so tu lah crita nya. memori daun pisang. igt tak? macam lagu dangdut. harhar. lepastu dalam bas time nak balik dia duduk belakang i lagi. tapi sekarang i dah tk terancam. rasa macam lain. kalau lah ada org faham macam mana rasa lain tu kan:/
so sampai sini sahaja. esok esok atau kejap lagi bila ada masa sambung cerita. insyaallah apa yg i igt i tulis. bye.
pacing back and forth
hello hi. i gonna write out all the memories i had since last 2 yar . ngeh:) and i prefer to write in malay for some reason. tahulah mcm tak patut je. org yg patut kita lupa, tp still nak tulis kan. but then macam ye lah. takut someday i akn lupa kan semuanya. i wrote some post yg berkaitan pasal jay dulu. tapi blog tu dah kena delete. and now dah mnyesal. tak tahu kenapa. oleh itu, siapa2 yg geli dengan post2 yang mendatang (which is most likely I GONNA write about _), tak payah susah2 nak jenguk ke apa.sebab nanti mesti meluat to the core. mmg dah niat nak private, tapi ntah lah. sayang seribu kali sayang. lol.
tu satu sebab. second sebab is.. sebab i nak baca balik semua tu. tahulah kan saya pelupa. segala barang pun nak hilang. kalau benda benda macam tu, tak tulis kat blog, mungkin mmg akn lupa bila hari hari yang mendatang lepas ni, memang dah TAKDE dia. kan. okay. gila sedih.
tu je. bai
tu satu sebab. second sebab is.. sebab i nak baca balik semua tu. tahulah kan saya pelupa. segala barang pun nak hilang. kalau benda benda macam tu, tak tulis kat blog, mungkin mmg akn lupa bila hari hari yang mendatang lepas ni, memang dah TAKDE dia. kan. okay. gila sedih.
tu je. bai
How does walking help prevent obesity?
An active lifestyle is a great prevention to obesity. A simple activity like walking is a good way to work out your muscles and eliminate stubborn fats.
Regardless of weight, being physically active for at least 30 minutes a day helps you burn approximately 150 calories, which in turn, reduces health risks.
To lose weight by walking, you have to increase the distance that you usually walk as it is how you burn calories, by using much energy. The farther the distance you cover, the more energy you consume.
To burn fats, walk far and fast. Walking helps you trim down only if you go beyond your usual pace and distance. It takes 3500 calories of activity to eliminate 1 pound of fat. Many health experts suggest you walk 20-30-minute, 3 to 5 sessions a week for general health benefits.
ok tu sikit je. nak lagi? click!
tengok betap menakjubkan khasiat berjalan nih. tu sebab masa cuti mesti di luangkan secara efektif, iaitu berjalan. masuk hari semalam dah 3 hari berturut2 pegi berjalan di orchard.
lepas ni kemana lagi(: macam nak ke botanic garden tp xde apa. i rather go orchard once again. kali ni bawak duit cukup2 1.80 sen untuk beli bubble tea yg shedap ada pearl byk2.dah
lah haritu pergi beli kiwi milkshake kat anchrpt, lepastu uncle yang BAIK HATI tu bagi i 2 scoop pearl tu ohyeah. shedap.okai.
sekian terima kaseh.
pfft: apahal orang2 yg kita layan baik2 nak sakit kan hati. kenapa oh oh oh. ke i tk layan baik baik? ke.. diorg igt diorg tk sakit ka hati i? ke... ke.. ok dah
pfft no 2: kalau ada crita xbest2 kat blog ni, cth nya'ohmy! bengang betul ngn budak tu' ok sebenarnya kalau nak melempiaskan amarah dlm blog ni slalunya tk ditujukan kepada family members i. unless stated.
pfft no 3: dah nak skolah dah. tapi skolah belum call lagi nak terima ke tak pelajar macam saya.
apahal tah
pfft no 4: anda.anda.boleh tak jangan jual mahal sgt? susah nak lawan perasaan 'eh jgn layan dia.dia tgh emo kot'
hahaha!
ok tu je.
looking forward,
im so ready to start with the fresh life. 1.1.2011, here i come. i'll try not to recall back all the moments i had when he was around. and my one and only wish for this upcoming year is, please bring my mind somwhere else when i HAV TO BE in school. -.-' i repeat.SCHOOL.
I think taylor swift stole my diary and wrote songs about my life. hush.hush.
hola.
hello.hi.
just got back from orchard. rmmb what date is today? 24th!
and orchard rd was flooded with people:o ngeh. kali ni pkai sliper bajet ah tk nk sakit kaki en.
skali nah amik kau. sakit smpai ke sendi. apa lah masalah pun tak paham
act nak beli beg n kasut baru. tapi kan.. byk sggt sale. lepastu duit tak banyak sgt. lepastu hero pun dtg.(parents) sbb masa pegi i pegi sorg dah nak balik diorg dtg. lepastu bawak la diorg besiar2 tgk barang yg I NAK. ni yg tak best. bila tunjuk je ada je commnt. tak elok lah. tak tahan lah. ok finee fine..
yg best harini, even ramai org. ramai jugak org hengsemnya. tp yg spoil nya mata i dah ada apa tu ketimbit? ya smthg like tht.. xdpt nak flirt. ok lebih ah tu. lepastu td tgh jalan jumpa la dua mamat bawah umur ni kan(i thnk so) then i mcm wahhh hengsemnya mereka dua ni. adik bradik la kot. then i pndg je lama lama. bila jalan erus nampk bapak dia duduk kat depan sengih tgk aku sbb dah usha anak dia. (kot) dlm hati dah kencang dah. relax ah pakcik. pndg je.
ok lepastu dah. balik rumah lapar. bye.
ah benci tulisan.
ngeh. sakit hati. sakit mata bila tgk tulisan sendiri. maksud i handwriting. bukan tulisan disini ya-.-'rasa macam makin teruk. the more i tried to improve my handwiting, the worst it became. why oh why? nangis tengok tulisan sendiri. its been a few month dah since i dah lama tak pegag open nak tulis banyak2. now dah rasa kekok. buat worksheet english YANG SUSAH tu pun xde mood. dah la tak jumpa jawapan. bila reka jawapan sendiri tengok tulisan macam harem. lagilah takde mood.
so sekarang rasa dah give up. i think last year kot. my handwriting dah OKAY lah sikit dari yang buruk en. since i asyik duduk sebelah kawan I yang tulisan macam :eh wth lawa sangat? even time dia malassss punn. tulisan dia macam DFGHJKL lawa ok! so bila dah rasa macam tergugat. terus sedaya upaya nak ubah tulisan kasik lawa.kemas.meriah. dan sebagainya.
tapi bab tulisan tak lawa ,benda yg x lain x bukan yg betulbetul wajibalghunnah nak dipersalahkan ialah PEN. kesian pulak nasib pen pen i neh. habis semua kena curse. lol. tu lah ttb teringt pesan cekgu sarimah. kalau x pandai menari, jangan salahkan lantai. ye tak ye tak?
ada lah pernah terbaca readers digest dulu (bajet la wei nak baca readers digest je.konon)
katanya tulisan tu melambangkan diri kita sebenarnya. kalau tulisan buruk,lawa lah orangnya. kalau tulisan lawa, buruklah orgnya. (ehem. . mati i kena baling slipar sbb bagi untrue fact.) i kata i TERBACA wokayh. benda mngarut pun terbaca. mmglah -.-'
oleh itu. saya dgn ini tak sabar nak start skolah dan tk sbar nak duduk dengan org yang bertulisan cantik dan tak sabar nak buat tulisan saya pun jadi cantik. tapi buat masa sekarang, i wonder HOW, i boleh improvekan tulisan i jadi CANTIK, without sitting next to the ugly person who has nice handwriting. eh tak-.-' gurau je.
tapi mengikut teori saya lah kan. tangan dah tak ngam/ tak de chemistry/ rase kasih dan sayang dan cinta kat pen yang menulis sehingga buat tulisan jadi buruk adalah sebab terlalu taksub dengan komputer. betul tak? saya rasa betul. sebab bila dah slalu menulis (masa time skolah dulu), lepastu jarang main comp terus nak taip 'saya suka main farmville' dekat status fb pun amik masa 12 minit. tapi bila dah pro terus tak pndg keyboard. bajet hensem lah taip pndg screen je. ok dah
tu je. ada apa apa tips nak lawakan tulisan tak? ok enuf. nak cari kat google skrg. bai,
oh lupa. sapa yg suka pakai mask macam nas amira sherina kan, boleh try tenyeh TOMATO yang dah masak,DIPOTONG KECIK2 kat muka. lepastu biarkan. then rasa mcm nk kering basuh. lepastu mesti rasa macam whoa. apahal kulit i mulus licin dan lembut sangat ni? kenapa?kenapa? lepastu baru realize ini semua angkara tomato. bau dah lah shedap. rasa je tak shedap.
ngeh.
btw. perasn tak kalau tulis bahasa melayu mesti mood i macam gembira habis. bila tulis bi, mesti down habis. apahal? ok tu je,
hello
hello hi.
am not suppose to blog at this time. i suppose to be on bed,cuddling in my blanket and try to sleep.
but yeah. i just feel like blogging. harhar. i wanna buy new school bag and shoes (even tho no one calls me to confirm tht im chosen to be in sec 5) I AM promoted. thts it. i just wanna feel fresh.
but not sure if my dad gonna let me splurge HIS money.
note: few weeks ago i bought sthg with my own money. but to be truth, it still came from the same source: my dad. wuuuuuuuuuuuuuush.
thinking of let go some of my items. mostly (dresses,shirts and stuff) i wonder if i CAN do blogshop and sell my preloved items. but.. jyeah. im soo lazy for tht. promoting.bank-in stuff.. blabla. plus me myeslf never tried buying anythg online. second reason: the items bukanlah lawa pun. ok tu je-.-'
ive started with the unexpected worksheet for the SEC-5-TO-BE. and i was at the verge of burst into tears when i found myself blank when i read the questn. i was stunned.
HOW ON EARTH AM I GOIN TO SURVIVE ESP FOR MY ENGLISH?! theres a lot of
'USING UR OWN WORD.. BLA BLA BLA..' and i hate that.
bye.
hello.hi.
hi blog(!)
(not sure if i still got any readers cuz i admit that most of the time, my post were kinda annoying lol)
okay here it goes. after a few hours of window shoppping, i think i felt good. i felt less tense and happy. so thanks to hanani. even tho im the one who had to accompanied her splurging her moneyh. :p but still. i felt good. ohyeay.
hurm, counting days to the day when the sch will be reopened :0
a lot of my friend were surprised when they knew that im going to continue schooling next year,due to my age which is suppose to be graduated and left school right after i took my final paper for SPM,as a private candidate =.=' so jyeah.and some of them remain poised when they heard abt this as they finally understand the reason why i continue to choose this 'path' which means, i chose to be in the situation where i'll be
revolved in the school life,he and she says stuff,dramaramas,tired of the pile of homework, stress out,waking up early on the weekdays,PE lessons(which i hate the most coz i hate sports.running. etc) then,staying back for remedial,wearing the same school uniform everyday, and finally,the worst=EXAM. hush.
mybe u think tht im stupid . but i think im not that imbecile. I chose to be here for some reasons. i dont really care if i gonna be left out/ or lagging far behind, while most of my friend continue to further studies. I believe that everyone has their own fate and destiny. no matter what, we're living along with our fate. no worries.
I liked to be here and sometimes i dislike being here. do i need to list down the reasons? hum, No thanks,I think no one bother if im happy/ not being here. jyeah-_-.
ok tu je kot.
ptlss.
hello. im not in a good mood today. I myself, wondering why =.='
ok next. I dont know if many people know who's the real me. I act differently towards different people. some says imma motivator. back then, i just love givin advice or tried to console some friends who had problems. but at times, i get confused with myself. coz i cant find another friend, who acts LIKE ME. :o whoa. thats LAME.
i wonder why i ofen left in a lurch :?
i heard most of my friends say that I am soft-hearted. I accept everythg without complain regardless whether it can bring harm or benefit to me. -_______-' especially when someone says somethg bad abt me or mybe says somthg that MAY HURT MY FEELING (infront of me). I'd prefer to be quiet. or mybe find some logical answer to make the other person (who asked/said the unpleasant things infront of me), deluding him/her that actually (I AM FINE WHEN YOU ASK/SAID SOMETHING LIKE THAT) ohhhoo..
and yes.u can call me love to pretend infront of otha people. I am, indeed.
but being like 'that' doesnt make me feel bad. I think that was the best way to make everything go as smooth as it can be. when problem arises,I dont like to be rebellious. it worsen the problem aite? well i wish people would pretend in front of me just to ensre that they care about my feeling.
thank you.
oh people who knows me, mind your Ps and Qs whenever you're talking to me. i may be deceived you by my acts sand saying but inside me, no one knows the real feeling inside me.
wait. dont u think i just love to write the word FEELING in this blog? :/
so yeah. you know how much i love to vomit out abt feeling here(:
iyaktioljq.
Blurb,the days went by. and im still reaching for you. even tho now, YOU ARE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. am not sure if i hav any chance to see you again. =.='
it had been almost a year ever since i start fell into you, and to be frank, everything starts from you.yes. YOU, no joke
I wasnt surprise when i found myself in this situation. Coz your gestures speaks the words from you.
I wonder why must you dragged me THIS FAR. and left my heart scattered without being fixed.
when the word VERY, takes over.
recently, i discovered that im actually.. . . er, livin in my very own world. I have my own secret hiding place and do my very own things. I DONT THINK that im enjoying doin this neither feeling bad.
I went back to my very own (place/hometown) last week. and VERY few people knew about my existence. Its not that i dont want to tell them that 'HEY! IM HOME! LETS HAV SOME FUN JYEAH?!'
and i felt like i was practically invisible.
BUT ACTUALLY, i knew that im not going to see them no matter what. i was like being pinned at my kampung, and theres no way i could change my fate that is written like this:
'the long-term holiday that i've been waiting for for the past freaking YEAR . . is going to be wasted by doing nothing and without your friends. THANK YOU.'
that was real disheartening aites?
by the way, feeling good cuz i can contribute SOMETHANG, by taking care my ailing grandma(:
i love her so much. she's my greatest grandma tht ive ever had. shes freaking good at cooking! her magnificent dishes was undoubtedly mesmerizing and mouth watering. everyone who had a chance to TRY her dishes is going to be amazed with the splendid taste! ok dah cukup :0
too bad:( this time. after i had been staying there for almost 1 week or so..
she(my grandma) was too weak to cook. instead, we bought her favvy foods and feed her. sometimes, i took the responsibility of assisting her to the toilet, strolling slowly to the kitchen by holding her hands, and preparing her medicine each nights.
cukup untuk ibu2 diluar sana yg ada anak hengsem, amik borang untuk try jadi ibu mertuaku.
oh gediknya.terus i kena reject:D
but then, not everything went SO WELL as what i've rattled as above.
sometimes, i did some mistakes and embarrassed myself with my awkwardness of taking care an aging people. im soo not eligible to be a nurse. kehkeh:D im not that feminine and girlish.
alhamdulillah, she has recovered after had been taken care by her freaking FILIAL granddaughter(: ok tipu je. 'grandchildren' and blablabla..
ok thats all.balik sini pun takde apa. baguslah. bosan bersama. internet ada depan mata selalu tak berguna.
I went back to my very own (place/hometown) last week. and VERY few people knew about my existence. Its not that i dont want to tell them that 'HEY! IM HOME! LETS HAV SOME FUN JYEAH?!'
and i felt like i was practically invisible.
BUT ACTUALLY, i knew that im not going to see them no matter what. i was like being pinned at my kampung, and theres no way i could change my fate that is written like this:
'the long-term holiday that i've been waiting for for the past freaking YEAR . . is going to be wasted by doing nothing and without your friends. THANK YOU.'
that was real disheartening aites?
by the way, feeling good cuz i can contribute SOMETHANG, by taking care my ailing grandma(:
i love her so much. she's my greatest grandma tht ive ever had. shes freaking good at cooking! her magnificent dishes was undoubtedly mesmerizing and mouth watering. everyone who had a chance to TRY her dishes is going to be amazed with the splendid taste! ok dah cukup :0
too bad:( this time. after i had been staying there for almost 1 week or so..
she(my grandma) was too weak to cook. instead, we bought her favvy foods and feed her. sometimes, i took the responsibility of assisting her to the toilet, strolling slowly to the kitchen by holding her hands, and preparing her medicine each nights.
cukup untuk ibu2 diluar sana yg ada anak hengsem, amik borang untuk try jadi ibu mertuaku.
oh gediknya.terus i kena reject:D
but then, not everything went SO WELL as what i've rattled as above.
sometimes, i did some mistakes and embarrassed myself with my awkwardness of taking care an aging people. im soo not eligible to be a nurse. kehkeh:D im not that feminine and girlish.
alhamdulillah, she has recovered after had been taken care by her freaking FILIAL granddaughter(: ok tipu je. 'grandchildren' and blablabla..
ok thats all.balik sini pun takde apa. baguslah. bosan bersama. internet ada depan mata selalu tak berguna.
FINALLY
hikes! finally i can use my comp. eh OUR comp(:
well hello MIRA! dah lama tak borak2. i malas lah sangat nak bukak YM.
penat=.=
ok move on to the next topic.
SEMALAM RESULT. . . . . kan. . .kan. . .
glad to say i can go sec 5! aka promoted lols. fewwit banyak.
lepastu cerita macam ni. secara kronologi :p
dari malaysia,smpai kerumah I, di (sini) around 1.30pm
ohmy!N level result is out by 2.30! and must be in sch by 2pm!
so i was kinda feelin dubious. nak pergi ke tak.
ekcelli (TAKNAK) coz tak snggup nak tgk result. rasa macam down haaabis.
then rasa mcm tknk lepaskan peluang. pendek cerita i rushing gosok uniform, set rambut.
eleh macam tak biasa. rambut dah gerbang2 dah lama tk free hair time pegi skolah. dah lama tak pakai skirt. ok semua dah lama. bila kena buat balik SEMALAM. rasa macam first day masuk skolah tau. HAHA! kasut i dah lah dah baling dlm stor. kan dah kelam kabuuutt :p
last2 bantai je apa yang ada. rambut maintain,serabai. baju half-IRONED. sebab nak cepat en;p
lepastu trus pegi skolah. smpai sana. . . semua dah assembled at hall.hadoi.
then teachers bagi briefing ape tah mcm brapa percent pupils pass ke ape.. ok dah cukup tragis untuk I yg berdebar2 menanti result. note: DAH LAH TAKDE GENG. SEBAB KAWAN DOK BLAKANG. I LAMBAT DUDUK DEPAN. SEBAB IKUT INDEX NUMBER. NAMA I START HURUF F. (tak faham?lupakan)
nak jadikan cerita, by the time teacher announced the Top students for NT, i khusyuk tgk screen besar kat depan. like WOW! powernye budak ni . . . then masa teacher nak announce top students for Nlevel, i was about to text my mum bla bla blaa. so my eyes were on the PHONE. NOT SCREEN.
i heard the teacher said (ok this is the top N level students)
and i was like.. ok.. ignore..
suddenly, one of my classmate sitting next to me shouted. YOU! and i was like HA?!
hahaha ok and i was the first in the rank. bangga tak? bangga kan? :D
but i only managed to get bronze awards:/ i pun tak faaham what the use of the award and how my aggregate relate to the award.blablabla. tp still award. so, to conclude, im not gonna miss out for my SECOND achievement for next year's speech day:D sukaa nyaa. bangga pun ada.
(hari kecemerlangan. apahal panggil speech day-.-')
tak kisahlah. janji dah lepas dah N level neh. thank you.
even my teachers yang tgk my maths and english result pon.. like WHOA?
ok tu je.
dah penat. seminggu duduk kampung, kilogram terus naik. kenapa?kenapa?kenapa makanan di terengganu sedap sedap belaka? kenapa!?
TYPICAL MUNDANE mission is on!
okeh.
tadi pergi orchard. lagi. sorang. lagi :0
okay tu saje. tak boleh cerita byk. nnti menganggu fikiran org org nak spm.
minggu depan. see yeah! tak sabar:p
okay tu saje. tak boleh cerita byk. nnti menganggu fikiran org org nak spm.
minggu depan. see yeah! tak sabar:p
tumblr
hello tumblr! :D click here for link.cewah! >>tumblr saya.
lepas ni takde dah la nak update blog. update tumblr laju sket
(except time nak reblog pictures time time internet sungguh la lmbt)
-.-
ok tu sahaja/ btw, hanani! see u at tumblr:D
kalau rindu i dtg sini balik(:
mwah smuaa
lepas ni takde dah la nak update blog. update tumblr laju sket
(except time nak reblog pictures time time internet sungguh la lmbt)
-.-
ok tu sahaja/ btw, hanani! see u at tumblr:D
kalau rindu i dtg sini balik(:
mwah smuaa
people im back!
hei tengok? harini cuaca tak menipu saya lagi :D
saya igt kan panas sampai ke petang rupanya memang panas smpai ke petang . .
eh lawak :/
mula2 plan nak g ngn nina then ajak nani then both tak pergi
tinggl i sorg sorg. mula lah i harapkan ibu
ibu menanam tebu ditepi bibir. kata nak teman i =.=
at the end i pergi sorang sorang. i siap pasang spy lagi(adik)
memula msg dia Zara ada sale tak lepas tu spy tak guna jawab lambat 15 minit
membuatkan saya jalan tak tentu hala. lepastu dia jawab NO.
so,i tak tau nak g mana... Grr.
(kalau tkda sale jgn masuk. harga beracun akan makan duit beracun dalam dompet.)
sampai orchard sedih je tau :/ i tgk org jalan dua org i jalan seorang.
kenapa? kenapa ? why oh whyyyy?!
lepastu beli jeans yg agak sama macam zara jeans i post kat pprev post:D tp yg i beli tu bukan zara. 1st sbb dah pegi zara tp tk jumpa. second sbb zara tkda sale. :0
next time beli kasut macam tu(prev post yg Toms tu) pulak eh. kedai tk jumpa lagi. kena buat jejak kasih nehh!
tapi kat rubi ada doh. tp tk selawa tuu la-.-
sebab dah gembira sgt sampai belikan souvenir untuk adik adik,mak dan ayah,semuaa..
sorang satu burger. (yay tepuk tgn semua) . .
dah sampai rumah claim duit. jgn tak claimm HAHAHHAHA!
ok tu je. nak apa apa lagi? saponification tu process buat soap tau! ada glycerol segala..ostwald nak dapat nitric acid haber process for ammonia :p soap ngan detergent ,detergent lagi baguihh ok? sbb takde scum. . lepastu lepastuu.. jangan lupa cation tu positively charge sebab 'cat' kan baik. (memandaii je)
tengok? siapa kata saya tak belaja chemistry untuk spm? tengok? tengok? HAHAH!
bye semuaaanyaa :p
saya igt kan panas sampai ke petang rupanya memang panas smpai ke petang . .
eh lawak :/
mula2 plan nak g ngn nina then ajak nani then both tak pergi
tinggl i sorg sorg. mula lah i harapkan ibu
ibu menanam tebu ditepi bibir. kata nak teman i =.=
at the end i pergi sorang sorang. i siap pasang spy lagi(adik)
memula msg dia Zara ada sale tak lepas tu spy tak guna jawab lambat 15 minit
membuatkan saya jalan tak tentu hala. lepastu dia jawab NO.
so,i tak tau nak g mana... Grr.
(kalau tkda sale jgn masuk. harga beracun akan makan duit beracun dalam dompet.)
sampai orchard sedih je tau :/ i tgk org jalan dua org i jalan seorang.
kenapa? kenapa ? why oh whyyyy?!
lepastu beli jeans yg agak sama macam zara jeans i post kat pprev post:D tp yg i beli tu bukan zara. 1st sbb dah pegi zara tp tk jumpa. second sbb zara tkda sale. :0
next time beli kasut macam tu(prev post yg Toms tu) pulak eh. kedai tk jumpa lagi. kena buat jejak kasih nehh!
tapi kat rubi ada doh. tp tk selawa tuu la-.-
sebab dah gembira sgt sampai belikan souvenir untuk adik adik,mak dan ayah,semuaa..
sorang satu burger. (yay tepuk tgn semua) . .
dah sampai rumah claim duit. jgn tak claimm HAHAHHAHA!
ok tu je. nak apa apa lagi? saponification tu process buat soap tau! ada glycerol segala..ostwald nak dapat nitric acid haber process for ammonia :p soap ngan detergent ,detergent lagi baguihh ok? sbb takde scum. . lepastu lepastuu.. jangan lupa cation tu positively charge sebab 'cat' kan baik. (memandaii je)
tengok? siapa kata saya tak belaja chemistry untuk spm? tengok? tengok? HAHAH!
bye semuaaanyaa :p
yes you picked me.
like an apple on a tree
hiding out behind the leaves
i was difficult to reach
but u picked me
:')
hiding out behind the leaves
i was difficult to reach
but u picked me
:')
semalam tak jadi pergi main basikal
sebab macam nak hujan
rupanya cuaca menipu saya
esok esok jgn percaya cuaca dah
harini panas terik saya nak pergi orchard
tak kira.
sebab macam nak hujan
rupanya cuaca menipu saya
esok esok jgn percaya cuaca dah
harini panas terik saya nak pergi orchard
tak kira.
affection
i google-ed some songs today,then pixie lott came across my mind
i've not listen to her song nearly a year. =.=
i know my blog is soo austere and bare :/ as always.
but not for this post. i gonna upload the picture of '
Earth shakingly gorgeous, Pixie Lott. hahars! pfft. i love her 'gravity' vid (:
i've not listen to her song nearly a year. =.=
i know my blog is soo austere and bare :/ as always.
but not for this post. i gonna upload the picture of '
Earth shakingly gorgeous, Pixie Lott. hahars! pfft. i love her 'gravity' vid (:
Yay! thats all(:
be happyy girl
i had nothing better to do. aside from studying chemistry : ester,haber and contact process and soap and detergent and weird much? about.. . . the names of the medicine. like eh? i thought it was for bio :/ surprisingly aite? overall physic is wayy easier than chem. blurrghh.
been thinking about losing some weight coz since the sch has closed for the people like me, i missed PE lesson. yaa i kno im the one who cant stop whining about it over and over again here. but now, i start missing all the routines, especially when i was forced run 8 round non-stop like err..
me want to play bicycle later :D people! say hi to meet if u see me around river valley/bishopgate rd:D i'll be there very very soon.
bye
been thinking about losing some weight coz since the sch has closed for the people like me, i missed PE lesson. yaa i kno im the one who cant stop whining about it over and over again here. but now, i start missing all the routines, especially when i was forced run 8 round non-stop like err..
me want to play bicycle later :D people! say hi to meet if u see me around river valley/bishopgate rd:D i'll be there very very soon.
bye
gehee.
Ginger restaurant at botanic.
too bad uh. and then we both (me and friend) took a bus from the nearest bus stop. but the bus used the long . . . way before we could reach our destination. we headed to the John silver and had some light-dinner, bought some stuff, then homed.lucky my dad fetched us :D
me actually not really good in using public transport. i just know the buses that i take from school to the bus stop near to my house, to the town , and from -near my house- to vivo.
what's more you can expect from me? i told yeah i lost in the MRT station few months back?
and i dont know how to use the machine for buying the mrt ticket, and hardly ever understand the platform, route and stuff.
geheee.
overall, today was fun and tiring :0
gonna continue studying for chemistry. yay me. night people
F
if i could have a friend, i'd like to have the one who are
humorous,trustful, honest and understand my liking.
beauty is a bonus. of course.
it's not that im not being thankful enough with
what i had right now i want someone who really treats me like
what a best friend suppose to DO.
i dont like when she likes to compare her life, studies , love story or otha things with me.
it's justt soo annoying.sadly, i owned a friend like her :/ and i feel like a fool telling the whole world that i was her best friend :/ im getting tired of this
humorous,trustful, honest and understand my liking.
beauty is a bonus. of course.
it's not that im not being thankful enough with
what i had right now i want someone who really treats me like
what a best friend suppose to DO.
i dont like when she likes to compare her life, studies , love story or otha things with me.
it's justt soo annoying.sadly, i owned a friend like her :/ and i feel like a fool telling the whole world that i was her best friend :/ im getting tired of this
why oh whyyyyyyy:/
if your purest intention is to hurt me at the end,
why did u beguile me with the hopes from the start?
it took me few days before i made the most absurd decision,
but u simply ruined everything in a nick of time?
you cant feel the pain coz u're the one who made me feel this way.
gahh.
why did u beguile me with the hopes from the start?
it took me few days before i made the most absurd decision,
but u simply ruined everything in a nick of time?
you cant feel the pain coz u're the one who made me feel this way.
gahh.
if
if he was a flower in my heart yesterday,
today he was a thorn in my flesh :/
oh thanks for that.
i have nothing to say right now.
bye.
today he was a thorn in my flesh :/
oh thanks for that.
i have nothing to say right now.
bye.
too early for the new post?
i just post an entry few min ago, now, here you go!
anotha entry.its not related to the school anymore.
it's about someone.i think i shall feel a bit disappointed here,
but i think there's no use for it:D
i wanna enjoy my life,
forget the past ok? :D and . . .
for you boy,anotha entry.its not related to the school anymore.
it's about someone.i think i shall feel a bit disappointed here,
but i think there's no use for it:D
i wanna enjoy my life,
forget the past ok? :D and . . .
(i know he does not read my blog but yeah
pretend that act he's reading right now)
thanks a lot for the wonderful and enchanting mute and silence moments with you(:
have a good life ahead and. I'm so sorry if i made u feel a lil awkward or uneasy whenever i was around/ near to you. it's just like an instinctive action which made me act like a fools in front of you.
but from now on. . . im not goin to see you again, i gonna keep those memories.thanks again :')
j-
thanks a lot for the wonderful and enchanting mute and silence moments with you(:
have a good life ahead and. I'm so sorry if i made u feel a lil awkward or uneasy whenever i was around/ near to you. it's just like an instinctive action which made me act like a fools in front of you.
but from now on. . . im not goin to see you again, i gonna keep those memories.thanks again :')
j-
huuh?
my dad told me yestrday after fetching me from librry.
he wants me to stay over at 'islamic school' 2 weeks before SPM.so that
i can F.O.C.U.S on studies. . i mean LAST MINUTE STUDIES.
he wants to pay for everything.. . . coz the sch was like 'private'/swasta school
then i was extremely shocked with the news. I dont want to stay in the school for 4 WEEKS?!
(including the exam weeks) i cant even bear with staying for A WEEK at S.I.girl school last 2 years and now, he expects me to stay for a month?
i just dont want him to waste his money on me paying for the fees, and
me is goin to be like an isolated girl who has been banished from her lala-world and needs to adapt herself with the 'TOTALLY DIFFERENT' ambience(?!)
and i wonder how the people there gonna accept the new-comers like me. Grrrrr.
i just scared of disappoint him wth my result. yeah. after all his hardship, and pain haha
(lame joke)
when i told him that i dont want then he said, he wants to give the best for me.
and on. . and onn . . .
now, i wish that the school would call my dad and told him the school does not accept any new comers coz it's TOO LATE. PLEASE.PLEASE :]
but yeahs. if i have to then, i'll go. . :) imma good girl aite. it's a month not a year right? im FINE.
yeahs, maybe :/
pfft: i think he tried to convince me that IT'S REALLY GOOD to go to the school coz he thinks that the teacher would definitely 'spent some time' for me and help me so that i can do
'even better' for my exam( this 23rd NOV till 6Dec) gahh. so yeahs. he bought new phone for himself, and you know what's goin on right now right? (me was so conflicted )
so yeahs. to make myself feel BETTER, i decided to go orchard alone today. . .
even though the haze now is like blanketing the whole city and
i was like walking in the misty air
and waiting for my prince charming to accompany me . . . bahahah! now, that's anotha lame joke
but actually, the haze doesnt stop me from thinking over and over about the sch.
:/ a months ok. a months. it's a longggggggg week. :0
so yeahs. while having window shopping,I met my dad again, at orchard =.= and he gave me some money for shopping?
or mybe it was like the subtle 'way' to make me say yes. for the final decision?umm, well i guess yeah. hehe.
ok then, buhbye!
he wants me to stay over at 'islamic school' 2 weeks before SPM.so that
i can F.O.C.U.S on studies. . i mean LAST MINUTE STUDIES.
he wants to pay for everything.. . . coz the sch was like 'private'/swasta school
then i was extremely shocked with the news. I dont want to stay in the school for 4 WEEKS?!
(including the exam weeks) i cant even bear with staying for A WEEK at S.I.girl school last 2 years and now, he expects me to stay for a month?
i just dont want him to waste his money on me paying for the fees, and
me is goin to be like an isolated girl who has been banished from her lala-world and needs to adapt herself with the 'TOTALLY DIFFERENT' ambience(?!)
and i wonder how the people there gonna accept the new-comers like me. Grrrrr.
i just scared of disappoint him wth my result. yeah. after all his hardship, and pain haha
(lame joke)
when i told him that i dont want then he said, he wants to give the best for me.
and on. . and onn . . .
now, i wish that the school would call my dad and told him the school does not accept any new comers coz it's TOO LATE. PLEASE.PLEASE :]
but yeahs. if i have to then, i'll go. . :) imma good girl aite. it's a month not a year right? im FINE.
yeahs, maybe :/
pfft: i think he tried to convince me that IT'S REALLY GOOD to go to the school coz he thinks that the teacher would definitely 'spent some time' for me and help me so that i can do
'even better' for my exam( this 23rd NOV till 6Dec) gahh. so yeahs. he bought new phone for himself, and you know what's goin on right now right? (me was so conflicted )
so yeahs. to make myself feel BETTER, i decided to go orchard alone today. . .
even though the haze now is like blanketing the whole city and
i was like walking in the misty air
and waiting for my prince charming to accompany me . . . bahahah! now, that's anotha lame joke
but actually, the haze doesnt stop me from thinking over and over about the sch.
:/ a months ok. a months. it's a longggggggg week. :0
so yeahs. while having window shopping,I met my dad again, at orchard =.= and he gave me some money for shopping?
or mybe it was like the subtle 'way' to make me say yes. for the final decision?umm, well i guess yeah. hehe.
ok then, buhbye!
nothing better to do
im soo good at wasting time. that's why im here.my butt glued to the the chair and
my eyes were locked on the computer screen . geehee! i wanna go somewhere. window shopping or.. . yeah spending time at town. anyone? 'willingly' accompany me:/ im soo boring right now.
my eyes were locked on the computer screen . geehee! i wanna go somewhere. window shopping or.. . yeah spending time at town. anyone? 'willingly' accompany me:/ im soo boring right now.
so into maths. bluek
hye! now phone dah rosak. mmg kesian betullah. screen dah hilang
few days ago ada lah kena nag kejap. tapi nama pun kejap en
since duduk kat sini sape je i nak msg. kadang kadang sehari tu tk msg siapa lgsung
even kadang kadang esok pagi nk g skolah baru nak cari phone kat mana sgala.
ish ish.tragis benar.
tengok lah betapa tak penting phone saya sejak berada disini.
tak pernah sekali pun org hantar msg picisan seperti
: hYe aWaK nK kEnAalan bOleH?
then lepas brapa saat tak balas . .
: aLa Awk Niew coMBunK nyERW.
atau kalau balas tny siapa ni and mana dpt no (nak jugak i jadi gedikk bersama tuh)
: aLaU Ite Ckp siaAPa aWk jgn Maaaarrah Taww :-)
choi benar. kalau ratio duduk di SANA dengan ratio duduk disini, menerima msg sebgitu,
kira kira kalau nak kira ala ala 10:0
kalau duk disana sminggu dpn 10 msg mcm tu, tapi kat sini seminggu = kosong. setahun? NONE.
pergh.patutlah kawan facebook i tak meningkat. gagagaga.
ok tu saje.TAK GUNA phne slalu pun still rosak...(sila salahkan jenama phone berkenaan kononnya tk tahan lama) -.-' sekarang tgh pujuk ayah tersayang (tetiba ngaku . . )
suruh beli phone baru untuk DIA sendiri. phone lama bagi saya ya? terima kasih.
perkataan phone lama mmg menjengkelkan. tapi bila phone lama tu is directly proportional to ----> iphone
mucullah satu equation baru tak payah guna y=kx lagi dah -.-'
x=y+k^2 atau. . . phone lama = iphone + dua kali i cakap i nak. i nak. (kuasa dua)
senang kan equation tu? tak payah pakai matrices inverse segala pun dah dapat jawapan.
ok gelabah betul. sekarang i nak buat kek cokelat untk ayah. esok nak bawak g shopping, lusa nak pegi tgk movie sama sama tulat nak ajak berkelah. ok tak ok tak? :p
mengarut lah aku. sampai disini sahaja. doakan i berjaya dapat iphone eh SPM
org kata doa lebih usaha takda takde guna. eh doa tu berguna tau. kalau sepuluh orang doa
dpt berkat 10 kali buat spm nnti keke:)
few days ago ada lah kena nag kejap. tapi nama pun kejap en
since duduk kat sini sape je i nak msg. kadang kadang sehari tu tk msg siapa lgsung
even kadang kadang esok pagi nk g skolah baru nak cari phone kat mana sgala.
ish ish.tragis benar.
tengok lah betapa tak penting phone saya sejak berada disini.
tak pernah sekali pun org hantar msg picisan seperti
: hYe aWaK nK kEnAalan bOleH?
then lepas brapa saat tak balas . .
: aLa Awk Niew coMBunK nyERW.
atau kalau balas tny siapa ni and mana dpt no (nak jugak i jadi gedikk bersama tuh)
: aLaU Ite Ckp siaAPa aWk jgn Maaaarrah Taww :-)
choi benar. kalau ratio duduk di SANA dengan ratio duduk disini, menerima msg sebgitu,
kira kira kalau nak kira ala ala 10:0
kalau duk disana sminggu dpn 10 msg mcm tu, tapi kat sini seminggu = kosong. setahun? NONE.
pergh.patutlah kawan facebook i tak meningkat. gagagaga.
ok tu saje.TAK GUNA phne slalu pun still rosak...(sila salahkan jenama phone berkenaan kononnya tk tahan lama) -.-' sekarang tgh pujuk ayah tersayang (tetiba ngaku . . )
suruh beli phone baru untuk DIA sendiri. phone lama bagi saya ya? terima kasih.
perkataan phone lama mmg menjengkelkan. tapi bila phone lama tu is directly proportional to ----> iphone
mucullah satu equation baru tak payah guna y=kx lagi dah -.-'
x=y+k^2 atau. . . phone lama = iphone + dua kali i cakap i nak. i nak. (kuasa dua)
senang kan equation tu? tak payah pakai matrices inverse segala pun dah dapat jawapan.
ok gelabah betul. sekarang i nak buat kek cokelat untk ayah. esok nak bawak g shopping, lusa nak pegi tgk movie sama sama tulat nak ajak berkelah. ok tak ok tak? :p
mengarut lah aku. sampai disini sahaja. doakan i berjaya dapat
org kata doa lebih usaha takda takde guna. eh doa tu berguna tau. kalau sepuluh orang doa
dpt berkat 10 kali buat spm nnti keke:)
changed,
I changed the song coz i dont want listen to a song which remind me of -you-know-who-am-i-referring-to- I guess it's a good try(: i dont want to be trapped in this cryptic feeling anymore.
waiting for somethg that me myself, unsure whether it can be real.
and if it's going to be reality, me myself,would definitely left in dubious. . . :0
grr
so yeah!
past few days i've been so busy helping out my mum organizing somethg like 'party'
sort of. . . :/ and it was extremely TIRING!
wait. i need to go now. mwah mwh! SEE YOU PEPPOS(:
waiting for somethg that me myself, unsure whether it can be real.
and if it's going to be reality, me myself,would definitely left in dubious. . . :0
grr
so yeah!
past few days i've been so busy helping out my mum organizing somethg like 'party'
sort of. . . :/ and it was extremely TIRING!
wait. i need to go now. mwah mwh! SEE YOU PEPPOS(:
fast forward.
dan sebenarnya.
mission impossible saya tu sgt besar/penting/menakutkan/dan sebagainya
hingga kini saya masih tak pasti tindakan saya betul ke tidak
wahai pembaca sekalian (bajet ah ramai tgh baca)
sila doakan saya berjaya.
walaupun anda sendiri tk tahu apa is kandungan agenda saya dalam misi saya
yang dimulakan sejak umm, e few days ago?
jgn risau. misi ini takkan melukakan/menyakitkan/memudaratkan org2
yang mendoakan kejayaan misi ini.
tapi kalau tak berjaya. mungkin saya yg merana. sikit lah
tak sukalah dramatik sgt
but yeah. even saya tk pasti tindakan sy ni betul ke tak, saya ke try
no matter what. BETTER TRY THEN NEVER.
ek'elleh. gila lah poyos.
sekian
mission impossible saya tu sgt besar/penting/menakutkan/dan sebagainya
hingga kini saya masih tak pasti tindakan saya betul ke tidak
wahai pembaca sekalian (bajet ah ramai tgh baca)
sila doakan saya berjaya.
walaupun anda sendiri tk tahu apa is kandungan agenda saya dalam misi saya
yang dimulakan sejak umm, e few days ago?
jgn risau. misi ini takkan melukakan/menyakitkan/memudaratkan org2
yang mendoakan kejayaan misi ini.
tapi kalau tak berjaya. mungkin saya yg merana. sikit lah
tak sukalah dramatik sgt
but yeah. even saya tk pasti tindakan sy ni betul ke tak, saya ke try
no matter what. BETTER TRY THEN NEVER.
ek'elleh. gila lah poyos.
sekian
hello people!
ok harini berazam nak menghadap sejarah.
tahulah minggu lepas dah hadap SEMUA SUBJEK
except for sejarah. kekeke. tapi hadap je. bukan lah efektif mana pun
nak tahu tak?
(eleh macam dalam majalah ape je nak berkuiz kuiz NAK TAHU TAK)
HAHA!
ok cerita macam ni. i lupa my own blog url
lepastu igt vicarious thought je. then i bukak vicariousthoughtdotblogspotdotcom.
then suddenly keluar tah apa punya post and i tgk PELIK GILA,
i mean bukan pelik apalah. its like mana tulisan i segala? mana? mana?
terus patah hati. rasa macam ada org mempergunakan blog ksyg ai. (cheii)
dlm brapa saat then i igt balik my ur yg betul2 punya/YAY
lalu adalah sesi jejak kasih antara tuan punya blog and blog beliauu (i lah tu)
ok tu saja. agak agak melalui tone saya menulis
awakk perasan tak mood saya macam mana harini. AHAHA!
sekarang dah 2pm. i belum mandi dari pagi. ni lah akibatnya bila
si pemalas dah habis sekolah. takde keja.
by the way. . . . .
KALAU MISSION TU BERJAYA, I BAGITAHU SATU BLOG. KALAU TAK BERJAYA I DIAM dan nyorok bawah katil. ok? lawak la tu.
psst: mission ni tkde kena mngena nggn spm. tolonglah wei.
tahulah minggu lepas dah hadap SEMUA SUBJEK
except for sejarah. kekeke. tapi hadap je. bukan lah efektif mana pun
nak tahu tak?
(eleh macam dalam majalah ape je nak berkuiz kuiz NAK TAHU TAK)
HAHA!
ok cerita macam ni. i lupa my own blog url
lepastu igt vicarious thought je. then i bukak vicariousthoughtdotblogspotdotcom.
then suddenly keluar tah apa punya post and i tgk PELIK GILA,
i mean bukan pelik apalah. its like mana tulisan i segala? mana? mana?
terus patah hati. rasa macam ada org mempergunakan blog ksyg ai. (cheii)
dlm brapa saat then i igt balik my ur yg betul2 punya/YAY
lalu adalah sesi jejak kasih antara tuan punya blog and blog beliauu (i lah tu)
ok tu saja. agak agak melalui tone saya menulis
awakk perasan tak mood saya macam mana harini. AHAHA!
sekarang dah 2pm. i belum mandi dari pagi. ni lah akibatnya bila
si pemalas dah habis sekolah. takde keja.
by the way. . . . .
IM ON MISSION. DO NOT DISTURB.
KALAU MISSION TU BERJAYA, I BAGITAHU SATU BLOG. KALAU TAK BERJAYA I DIAM dan nyorok bawah katil. ok? lawak la tu.
psst: mission ni tkde kena mngena nggn spm. tolonglah wei.
___
ohwai! i dreamt about someone last night. it was extremely sweet(!) sweeter than anything.
it feels like i was completely living in the real dream land.
and if i have an option, i'd choose to be in that 'dream' forever
awaken by the loud shrieks of the alarm clock, i discovered that
it was just a DREAM. it was so frustrating and disheartening.'
if you're just a passerby ,i can assure that u would not
interfere in my life as often as you did till then
=.="
Maybe we're friends and maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder*
it feels like i was completely living in the real dream land.
and if i have an option, i'd choose to be in that 'dream' forever
awaken by the loud shrieks of the alarm clock, i discovered that
it was just a DREAM. it was so frustrating and disheartening.'
if you're just a passerby ,i can assure that u would not
interfere in my life as often as you did till then
=.="
Maybe we're friends and maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder*
whoa?
ada benda yg tak best bila i dah 'declare' dengan somebody yg we're besfren. tak kisah lah ngan sesiapa pun.. yang penting once kita dah macam 'homaigod dia ni baik betullah. jom jadi bestfren dia?hot pulak tu bijak bestari ke apa sebagainya pulak tu. mesti besh kalau jadi bestfran dia.jom lah jom. kena jadi bestie ni KENA?!..
first word: EEEeek
as i went through the up-and-down-of-life, all i could say is, when i was in the strong friendship bond with somebody, I couldn't see the imperfection in my 'bestfren'. bestfran(s) are just TOO PERFECT. Even when they did somethang which can hurt my feeling, i'd just say umm it's okay. coz she's my bestfran.
second word: double eeEEk. sheer stupidity.
dear, bestfren(s) you hurt me more then I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love and care for you more then you deserve, why am I such a fool?
urgh
each time i see my fb profile,
i keep crossing my two fingers.
hopping that she'd post something on my wall
or.. bla bla bla.
each time i log on to my ym.
i'd definitely hope that she appears 'online'
and each time i see my phone.
i always hope that her name would flash on the
phone screen. WITHOUT me start the convo -.-
when i saw her name, appeared ONLINE on any social net,
i feel my heart jumping around with joy. i mean yeah. i really want to be
'near her'
BUT THEN . .
urgh. i shouldnt continue writing this crapps.
it hurts me. badly.
you dont need to do the 'ritual' of saying hi.hello.missy.lovey.dovey.sweetie.yippy.thingy. to
show me your 'care' i dont need them if i actually know that u didnt mean it.
this is not about unrequited love.
well, it's mybe an UNREQUITED friendship.
er sortt of.. . .
if u actually know that we're actually in the brink of saying goodbye to each other.
i keep crossing my two fingers.
hopping that she'd post something on my wall
or.. bla bla bla.
each time i log on to my ym.
i'd definitely hope that she appears 'online'
and each time i see my phone.
i always hope that her name would flash on the
phone screen. WITHOUT me start the convo -.-
when i saw her name, appeared ONLINE on any social net,
i feel my heart jumping around with joy. i mean yeah. i really want to be
'near her'
BUT THEN . .
urgh. i shouldnt continue writing this crapps.
it hurts me. badly.
you dont need to do the 'ritual' of saying hi.hello.missy.lovey.dovey.sweetie.yippy.thingy. to
show me your 'care' i dont need them if i actually know that u didnt mean it.
this is not about unrequited love.
well, it's mybe an UNREQUITED friendship.
er sortt of.. . .
if u actually know that we're actually in the brink of saying goodbye to each other.
but,
im so sleepy right now.
but i just couldnt sleep.
wonder what am i thinking about right now.
ish.hearto
but i just couldnt sleep.
wonder what am i thinking about right now.
ish.hearto
awan yang terpilu oh sungguh panjang tajuk entri
yelah. maklum kan semua, harini last day of school OK!
jangan terkejut i dah habis pereksa tapi masih tak berapa nak bahagia sekarang
so tadi pergi clbrate bdae kawan. tapi i tak makan sebab restoran tersebut tak halal. pfft. dayum tk dayum. dah la kelaparan-,- duit dalam poket ada lima belas dollar. apa lah sgt kepingan 5 belas doler tu dengan makanan kat tempat tu. nak order ais kosong pun aku curiga dgn harganya. lantas, langkah selamat buat buat lah muka bahagia teman sahabat handai kannn =.='
last last time nak balik,i sesat di ion orchard. bayang lah sikit orang lapar cari jalan pulang rumah
memang sah tak jumpa. . . lepas bertapak punyalah JAUH sorang sorang dengan uniform sekolah lagi bagai. tangan kat sbelah dah pegang cotton on punya plastik.rasa macam tahape hape je. jalan sornag-.- dah nama pegi orchard. jgn lepaskan peluang gunakan senjata 15 dollar tadik! (: HAHAH!
ok akhir cerita dapat lah balik. tapi bab awan yang terpiluu tu bukan sebab
lapar sebenarnyaa. sebab sebenarbenarnya. sgt memilukan bila
i pergi skolah pukul 11.20 (malaslah dtg awal walaupun potensi nak jumpa__ agak tinggi)
tapi malang sekali smpai depan kelas pintu dah la kunci sebab diorg on aircond kot? bila teacher masuk baru switch off-.-' i pun terpaksa lah bertapa depan kelas smbil cuci mata harap harap jumpa la bayang ___ haha!
punyalah tak seronok. nak sambut farewell berdua pun tak sempat.sebab TAK NAMPAK LANGSUNG ___ choi! (ok sungguh tu dlm mimpi nak smbut farewell sgala)
pastu calling2 cikgu sebab i dah malas nak pegi pusing satu skolah nak cari cikgu pemegang gambar club (DNI pictures) i. so yeah. dah jumpa cikgu.. cikgu tu pulak buat lawak,. lepas i amik gmbar tu, cikgu tu cakap dengan slmmber..
did u see __ in sch today? (my reaction: freak out! ohmy?!)
then i tergagagap cakap tak sure. then the teacher said
if u see ___ , please ask him to take the pics from me.
AND I WAS LIKE. if u actually know that i've not talk to him since... he had spellbound me with the love in the air.. ERR. tu memang over. so yeah. i keep those words in my mind.
and the teacher was like ulang2 suruh i carik dia. and even told me which pictures he bought, then showed me HIS PHONE NUMBER. tgk betapa byk nya info i dpat harini. tp malu lah kan takkan nak amik phn number tu, kalau ikut tak malu amik ah:D
finally i said. oh mybe he's still having class right now. FUHH LEGA-.-'
jangan terkejut i dah habis pereksa tapi masih tak berapa nak bahagia sekarang
so tadi pergi clbrate bdae kawan. tapi i tak makan sebab restoran tersebut tak halal. pfft. dayum tk dayum. dah la kelaparan-,- duit dalam poket ada lima belas dollar. apa lah sgt kepingan 5 belas doler tu dengan makanan kat tempat tu. nak order ais kosong pun aku curiga dgn harganya. lantas, langkah selamat buat buat lah muka bahagia teman sahabat handai kannn =.='
last last time nak balik,i sesat di ion orchard. bayang lah sikit orang lapar cari jalan pulang rumah
memang sah tak jumpa. . . lepas bertapak punyalah JAUH sorang sorang dengan uniform sekolah lagi bagai. tangan kat sbelah dah pegang cotton on punya plastik.rasa macam tahape hape je. jalan sornag-.- dah nama pegi orchard. jgn lepaskan peluang gunakan senjata 15 dollar tadik! (: HAHAH!
ok akhir cerita dapat lah balik. tapi bab awan yang terpiluu tu bukan sebab
lapar sebenarnyaa. sebab sebenarbenarnya. sgt memilukan bila
i pergi skolah pukul 11.20 (malaslah dtg awal walaupun potensi nak jumpa__ agak tinggi)
tapi malang sekali smpai depan kelas pintu dah la kunci sebab diorg on aircond kot? bila teacher masuk baru switch off-.-' i pun terpaksa lah bertapa depan kelas smbil cuci mata harap harap jumpa la bayang ___ haha!
punyalah tak seronok. nak sambut farewell berdua pun tak sempat.sebab TAK NAMPAK LANGSUNG ___ choi! (ok sungguh tu dlm mimpi nak smbut farewell sgala)
pastu calling2 cikgu sebab i dah malas nak pegi pusing satu skolah nak cari cikgu pemegang gambar club (DNI pictures) i. so yeah. dah jumpa cikgu.. cikgu tu pulak buat lawak,. lepas i amik gmbar tu, cikgu tu cakap dengan slmmber..
did u see __ in sch today? (my reaction: freak out! ohmy?!)
then i tergagagap cakap tak sure. then the teacher said
if u see ___ , please ask him to take the pics from me.
AND I WAS LIKE. if u actually know that i've not talk to him since... he had spellbound me with the love in the air.. ERR. tu memang over. so yeah. i keep those words in my mind.
and the teacher was like ulang2 suruh i carik dia. and even told me which pictures he bought, then showed me HIS PHONE NUMBER. tgk betapa byk nya info i dpat harini. tp malu lah kan takkan nak amik phn number tu, kalau ikut tak malu amik ah:D
finally i said. oh mybe he's still having class right now. FUHH LEGA-.-'
tapi jauh jauh sbenarnya teringin lah nak terserempak. tapi tah lah.kalau
ni lah pengakhirannya. redha sungguh lah saya disini. tsssssssssssssk!
happy upcoming birthday GUESS GUESS! be happy and
be prettay! hahaahrs(: i wish i could see u wearing a dress someday
sweetie sixteen:D
ni lah pengakhirannya. redha sungguh lah saya disini. tsssssssssssssk!
happy upcoming birthday GUESS GUESS! be happy and
be prettay! hahaahrs(: i wish i could see u wearing a dress someday
sweetie sixteen:D
random 103
I need to continue revising for spm(mlaysia o level) otherwise, im all the way down..
tssk. i kno im soo goin to flunk most of my subjects.
or mybe ALL of my subject. seriously i've less than a month to revise all subjects that
normal students cover up for 2 YEARS. and me? self-study like errr
being dragged into this situation, i dont want to point a finger to anybody especially my dad.
he was the one who kind offorced me to take this exam.
and me, reminded him repeatedly (not once) that IM SOO NOT GOING TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. i mean yeah. dont expect distinction for this time coz i know i cant.
he said. dont fear failure. :0 (ouh im touched. but still. . . )
thanks for the people who encourages me and equally, there were some people who're NOT.
they even being extreme-sarcastic towards me. it was like COMPLETELY sickening.
i dont want to lose respect in them just because of this minor thingy. so i keep reminding myself that they're different. they just had no chance to be in my shoes. we're in the DIFERRENT boat.
like seriously when i met all this kind of people, i saw myself slapping them in instance. luckily it was merely my imagination. HEHE. i do not have a heart to do that btw(:
when i look at this picture, my heart sank. i couldnt find myself in this picture
me: out of picture and out of the venue haha!
i was so unfortunate. i just had a chance to be in this club for less than a year:/
i love my cca. yay! despite of the 'cool' name of the club, me like the teachers too! they're cool:D
tssk. i kno im soo goin to flunk most of my subjects.
or mybe ALL of my subject. seriously i've less than a month to revise all subjects that
normal students cover up for 2 YEARS. and me? self-study like errr
being dragged into this situation, i dont want to point a finger to anybody especially my dad.
he was the one who kind of
and me, reminded him repeatedly (not once) that IM SOO NOT GOING TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. i mean yeah. dont expect distinction for this time coz i know i cant.
he said. dont fear failure. :0 (ouh im touched. but still. . . )
thanks for the people who encourages me and equally, there were some people who're NOT.
they even being extreme-sarcastic towards me. it was like COMPLETELY sickening.
i dont want to lose respect in them just because of this minor thingy. so i keep reminding myself that they're different. they just had no chance to be in my shoes. we're in the DIFERRENT boat.
like seriously when i met all this kind of people, i saw myself slapping them in instance. luckily it was merely my imagination. HEHE. i do not have a heart to do that btw(:
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when i look at this picture, my heart sank. i couldnt find myself in this picture
WHY?WHY?! that was soo unfair. :((
tak aci sungguh :0 (meet my CCA club members! hehe.)me: out of picture and out of the venue haha!
i was so unfortunate. i just had a chance to be in this club for less than a year:/
i love my cca. yay! despite of the 'cool' name of the club, me like the teachers too! they're cool:D
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